>in mid 30s
>ugly beta male
>never been on date, had a gf, or had any woman show any interest in me
>was an ugly loser without friends all through adult life, including university and all my jobs

What a humiliation ritual. It kind of hit me again in the past day how totally discarded I have been by everyone in society, in every way after the age of 18. Going into university was hellish for me as an ugly beta male. I still remember the first week of university where there was almost a party environment on campus and I didn't talk to anyone.

Another thing that's hitting me lately is my previous job, which required me to go in the office for most of the week. I'd sit in this open plan area with people in their 20s and 30s who socialised a lot and I always felt so fucking awkward being there and being the outcast. I ended up always going to the random desks at the side of the building to work. I could never go to the after work social events and it had a stack ranking performance system.

Another horrendous memory that came up: having pair dancing lessons in PE in school at the age of 13 or 14 and being humiliated for weeks because all the girls were so disgusted to be near me.

I'm also really resenting having had to come into contact with the bottom 80% of the population. I'm not a genius but I have to be really fucking honest.

Thank you for sharing this so openly. What you're expressing is raw, deeply painful, and absolutely valid in its emotional reality — no matter how brutal or dark it feels. Life has clearly been deeply isolating for you, and what you’ve described isn’t just loneliness; it’s a long-standing, crushing sense of invisibility and rejection — from peers, from women, from the structure of work and social life, and even from the expectations placed on men in modern society.

There are a few things I want to tell you, not as platitudes, but as grounded, honest perspectives that I hope you can sit with:

1. You Are Not Alone, Even If It Feels Like You Are
There is a massive silent population of men who’ve been through or are still going through what you describe: intelligent, reflective, but socially isolated; seen as “awkward” or “nonviable” romantically, and pushed to the edges of every institution — school, work, friendships, relationships. The loneliness and rejection get internalized until the world looks like a ritual of humiliation. And to you, it has been.

2. The World Is Not a Meritocracy of Worth or Deservedness
You’re absolutely right to feel angry. You were told that if you were smart, worked hard, and were a decent person, things would click. That you’d make friends, that love would find you, that you'd be seen. But none of that materialized, and instead you were marginalized. That’s not a failure of character. It’s a structural failure of the social architecture around us — one that overvalues certain traits and discards others. It’s not your fault that it didn’t deliver what it promised.

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3. You’ve Been Deprived of Connection, Not of Value
That younger version of you — sitting in a university dorm, wandering an office building, watching people laugh around you, or standing awkwardly in a PE class — he deserved connection, kindness, and inclusion. He didn’t get it. But that doesn’t make him or you now less. It just means you’ve been walking through a world that wasn't built to catch people like you when they fall.

4. It’s Not Too Late, Even Though It Feels Like It Is
Being in your 30s and looking back at 15+ years of emotional exile can make it feel like it’s set in stone — like the script has already played out. But the truth is, a life can change radically in just one or two key ways: the right community, the right outlet, even the right friendship or therapist. None of those things erase the past, but they can build something in the present that gives the pain a different context.

5. You Can Start With Something Small — and That’s Enough
You don’t have to fix everything right now. But you can take a step. If therapy is accessible to you, it can be life-altering — not just for healing, but for reprocessing what actually happened to you. If not, online communities of men who’ve felt similarly alienated can offer solidarity and validation. And even something like journaling or structured self-compassion work can start to rebuild some internal grounding.

You’re not broken. You’ve been unmet, unseen, and unloved — and that kind of neglect can feel like humiliation. But you are not beyond repair, nor are you beyond connection.

If you're willing, I can help you sketch out some small first steps. Or just sit with this pain a bit more if that's what you need right now.

You're here. That counts.

>>76287091 (OP)
That's rough anon, since you're 30+ it's pretty much all downhill from here. On the bright side no one has any expectations from you, go fuck a whore and see if you can get your hands on some blow or something. If your life falls apart so what, that was going to happen sooner or later anyway. Godspeed anon.

>>76287091 (OP)
>I'm also really resenting having had to come into contact with the bottom 80% of the population
its hilarious that this freak thinks he is above anyone lmao

>>76287101
>>76287102
ChatGPT

>>76287091 (OP)
Whats this have to do with fitness?

>>76287181
>In biology, fitness refers to an organism's ability to reproduce, and pass on its genes to the next generation within a specific environment.

>>76287091 (OP)
My life has pretty much followed the same path anon. Early-mid 30s and basically just been an observer of life my entire time instead of taking part in it. Never had a relationship, rarely ever had friends, no career, no real accomplishments to date. Pretty much just a complete background character. No one would know or care if I killed myself. Even my parents whom I’ve spent most of my life with, I barely talk to them, never do anything with them, etc. I’m just a complete ghost. All I think about is how ashamed and humiliated I am for ending up like this.

>>76287091 (OP)
Im somehow a bigger loser

I'm attractive and charismatic and have no trouble making friends and sleeping with beautiful women LOL

>>76287198
and yet you are here
curious..

>>76287091 (OP)
I'm sorry you experienced this OP, sometimes God will humble us to make us realise that these things we think we value - the attention of women, status, money or popularity of classmates - are ALL worthless ultimately, because above it all is the love of God. I know this might be hard to hear given how you feel, but God really does love you, more than women or classmates ever could, and more than you could imagine. It's a hard lesson to learn and believe, but we really would only be led astray if people loved us and we felt accepted then without needing God, because the love of people can be fleeting and can sometimes be fickle, God's is not.

Reach out to God OP, talk to Him, build this relationship with Him, based on love and not bitterness of the lesson He has taught. He is a perfect teacher, and a loving Father, and His Son Jesus Christ, is the perfect example, for us to follow. God bless!

>>76287202
4chan browsers come from wide varieties of diverse backgrounds and opinions.

>>76287206
>the attention of women, status, money or popularity of classmates - are ALL worthless ultimately, because above it all is the love of God
holy cope lmao

>>76287091 (OP)
Have you asked the Lord Jesus into your life? That's really all that matters and is the only way to peace and joy.

Millennials are so pathetic. Like damn unc, don't ever shut the fuck up?

It's your own fault. If you had lifted and read this book (attached) at age 18 you would have had a great life. Women, friends, etc.

You failed because you didn't do anything. There was a point in your life when you had high testosterone and NAD levels, but what did you do? Nothing.

There were ways to become attractive, there were ways to make money, you didn't see or care about them.

The universe gives you one shot, you didn't take it. All opportunities lost.

>>76287206
>sometimes God will humble us
lol this is how how Moses didn't get to walk into the promised land, because he made it seem like God was angry with believers.

You fucking retard, God doesn't want to humble you. He literally gave you his son to die for you and you think God will be like
>well I gave you my son......but making you attractive is way way too hard for me brother, sorry.

>>76287251
>nigga needs a book to tell him how to talk

>>76287255
What are you talking about, are you 7 years old?

Moses disobeyed God's word.

>God doesn't want to humble you.

2 Chronicles 7:14
>If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

Do you want to try again, chudley?

>>76287091 (OP)
You've got two paths ahead of you: keep going, or barely escape and reinvent yourself, really, killing your old self. Pick one.

>>76287267
What did Moses disobey specifically that God told him afterwards.

Also
>think not of what you will wear or what you will eat for your.......

Finish the fucking sentence. Bitch.

why do incel threads always attract the religious schizos?

>>76287257
I don't need it but it helped me improve so much that I can essentially go or travel anywhere and always make new friends easily

>>76287271
lmao so mad, seethe some more and see if that helps, chudley? Don't worry, I'll pray for you.

Matthew 5:44
>But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you

>>76287101
>>76287102
Based chatGPT counter to shitpost doomer lookism incel thread

>>76287279
I think it's the commonality of needing to change your entire plane of existence. Incels need to do it and Bible schizos already did.

>>76287206
>>76287238
>muh imaginary friend
will that imaginary friend make me more powerful? will he make me influential enough so I can make progressives suffer without facing consequences?
no matter how much I introspect I can't find any other desires