>>76463443 (OP)Being a KHHV for 28 years and having no affection from my mother has made me murderous toward women. I shake with rage when I see a happy couple and I feeel like I must kill them. They do not deserve to be happy if I am not happy.
I go to a counselor and he gives me garbage psychokike answers like “put yourself out there”.
I am afraid I will get laughed at for trying. I will kill if I am rejected and mocked again for the crime of trying.
I have 1 year to turn things around or my counselor will submit me to an institution for my safety and that of others.
Im not crazy only lonely and angry.