Thread 76595839

>dad walking out on me, mom, and siblings
>uncle choking me because he thought I stole money from under his mattress
>getting picked last every day in phys ed

Why do you need resentment to fuel you? Why don't you love lifting for lifting's sake?

I think you need a hug OP.

>throwing my kids and wife in the air
>giving my niece and nephew godchildren some cash for their birthday
>walking on as a stranger and being a starter for collegiate and club rugby

>>76595839 (OP)
Whatever happens, don't transition, OP

another anon thinks hes special and doesn't have the same exact life as 12 billion other humans that have already lived and died

>>76595839 (OP)
>getting picked last every day in phys ed
my condolences

>>76595839 (OP)
>dad asks me if I have a secret gf I didn't tell him about
>tell him we went fishing together every saturday and sunday this entire year so obviously no

Mom got blackedd

>>76595891
it's all so tiresome

>>76595839 (OP)
not a certain moment but lifting and train spotting are the only 2 things keeping me from ropemaxxing.

>>76595839 (OP)
>Be me
>At a new school
>Near the beginning of the school year
>Excited to start fresh and make a name for myself
>At climbing gym for fieldtrip
>Doing some "team building" exercise where all the kids stand on a platform and swing by a rope over to another platform
>Eager to show off the "new me", I volunteer to go first
>All I have to do is hold onto the rope with my arms and scrunch up my body
>Simple enough
>Attempt 1
>Drop to the floor as soon as my feet leave the platform
>Instructor is encouraging and supportive, tells me to try again
>Attempt 2
>Fall immediately
>Energy in the room has noticably died some
>Attempt 3
>Fall even sooner
>Instructor suggests I let someone else give it a go
>Mumble something like an affirmation and excuse myself to the restroom
>Sit in the stall scrolling on my phone for 30 minutes
>Might've cried a little, don't entirely recall
>Come back out to try again
>All the other kids have already swung onto the other platform
>I watch from the sidelines as they all get a group photo taken, proud smiles on their faces
I never enrolled in any P.E. classes after that. Been trying to make up for it with lifting.

>first girlfriend I ever had showed me her tits in the weight room

High school was fun

I had a dream where I went to a porn convention and a pornstar told me I could easily sleep with any of them if I worked out.

>>76595839 (OP)
>buy first motorcycle
>picture taken of me on the bike
>disgusted with how fucking fat i was in that pic
>got a gym membership the next day

>>76595839 (OP)
Post hand, how dark

>>76595981
>all I have to do is hold onto the rope with my arms
I see you're just as retarded as back then, it's incredibly difficult to hold onto the rope with just arms and no child is expected to have that level of of grip strength that's why we use our legs too, retard.

>>76595844
This. All OP is doing is boiling his soul away until all that's left is a heart of stone. Even if you'd return to them jacked, rich and handsome they would still degreade you just to spite you. You'd react violently and do something you'd regret. You'll end up getting yourself locked while they're out there spinning new victim narrative and recontextualize your entire existance as someone who "always was like this". Stay where you are and work on yourself. Think of it as New Game+ where this time you can make better decisions. You're surrounded by proper grown ups who dont care about your supposedly lame pathethic past.