>>29015125very interesting. i wont pretend to fully understand what you feel nor do i want to read into it too much and make things up. but i feel like i relate well to a certain perception of what you said, that ive perhaps more so made up in my head.
for me these videos feel like the loose beads in a kaleidoscope, sort of how you can shake it up and the image will completely change and you cant get back the same pattern as before. and you are too close and too zoomed in to get any sort of bearing, and nothing is very well relative to one another. i get these sort of sensations extremely badly when i wake up, usually in a confused daze. for me they can be torturous. do they offer you the same sort of trouble, do they cause you harm? or is it a more passive presence? or so much stimulation it is hard to put into words? or something completely different?
i often feel like a big retarded nerd for talking about this stuff because it is so far off and nonsensical, but it is what it is i guess. also the ambience is very nice in those webms