>>211642754Mostly mental. I am 6’5, white, multiple degrees, funny, high iq, muscular, heroic proportions, and have a well paying job. I don’t go out much but I’ve been told by multiple people, men and women, that I look like Jason Momoa bc of long hair, beard, and face.
Mentally I have always been a very shy person. I remember even the first day of kindergarten I didn’t even want to leave the car I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I was always one of the biggest kids in class and in football so I was popular in a sense but I never socialized much and had no friends outside school hours.
I had crushes on some girls but never brave enough to talk to any. I never went to prom or any school dance. I think one is still single but she is very Christian so I don’t think she ever uses a dating app, and she doesn’t know of me I just knew her through mutual friends.
I can work from home so most of my day I am in my apartment alone. Maybe I go to the gym or go to grocery shop but that is all I do. Last week I didn’t even leave my apartment Monday through Friday I didn’t feel like it.
I am overweight now and I fluctuate, at least I have good bone structure and a base of muscle that makes me look better but it is hard to not be depressed and eat everything and let myself go.
I don’t think I’ll ever have a girlfriend or wife and it is all I ever dreamed of as a kid. It would be nice to have a best friend to spend time with all the time. I am not interested in sex/casual stuff so I might just die KHHV.