Tonight in France is Fête de la Musique.

Young people/normie/girls will get drunk and party in city centers. No cars just fun music and beer.
All the optimistic normies will be out enjoying life. It's very hot right now and a lot of people are excited.
It's a very festive occasion, people shout and seeing strangers is tolerated.

Me? I am a retarded incel and I am 27 so I will stay home, like I do every year.
It always puts me in a strange mood for a few days. Here I am and here they are. They have everything I want. Freshness, fun, friends. I can't get that.

The point is not even getting there. I did get there and live the high life for a while. But then? I came crashing down and none of my friends are still around. I got a taste very briefly and then it was taken away from me. All occasions? missed.

I feel enraged (at myself) and sad at the same time. I'm growing old already and inexperienced. Every year, ever fête de la musique I miss, I grow more defeated, more lonely, more persuaded it never ever began for me.

To cope with this I will get a beer and stay on /int/ with my friends. Not on this bread because it will die as all my breads do, but somewhere else.

Does fête de la music (day of music) or any of the abovementioned experiences happen in your country? Do you go yes or no? Ever made friends or the gf in the occasion?

>>211967761 (OP)
Same in Warsaw - today is Noc Kupały or Noc Świętojańska or Wianki - basically a summer solstice holiday - and everyone is celebrating next to Vistula river
But I'm just like you, so I'm sitting home alone

I feel you, frogbro. Here's a bump for ur bread

>>211967761 (OP)
Every time I do something like this festival, I'm always so underwhelmed and keep thinking that I'd rather be at home. My friends are boring, the people are annoying, the women are shallow etc.

When I'm at home instead, whether by choice or not, I feel left out of society and think about how nice it'd be if I went there with some good company.

From my 30+ years on this earth, the only lesson I've learned is that I'm gonna be a miserable son of a bitch no matter what. I'm on a pendulum between loneliness and wanting to left alone. Maybe it's a me problem, maybe I shouldn't move around as much and maybe I should have kept in touch with my old friends and be less picky. Or more picky. I don't fucking know.
But it is what it is. Enjoy your beer my french friend, I'll have one too later today.

My only friend is my brother and he ignores me whenever his girlfriend visits him

>>211967761 (OP)
Hope they die

>>211968266
Yeah.

>>211968182
Thanks fren.

>>211968208
Back when I had friends I was either the quiet one not getting much attention, or the clown one. I also got tired very quickly in any interactions. Where they would stay out the entire night I would start feeling like shit at midnight and gradually shut down. It feels like there's no middle ground.

>>211967761 (OP)
1) Thats the fate of everyone in your pic once they turn 30
2) It looks like a shit waste of time, "ooooooh I drank overpriced piss water with other people ooooooh Im so cool". Fuck off with that normie shit
3) I cant relate, my own company always meant more happiness than more unhappiness and the company of others mean more unhappiness than happiness ever since I know myself, now that I will be able to escape the company of my shit parents as well and be trully alone I will find actual happiness

>>211967761 (OP)
>standing in the street, drinking, surrounded by niggers

why do normies love doing this so much? it's the same in my country.

>>211968748
They need to hear constant noise from others because otherwise they will stare into the abyss with no inner voice to hold them together. They are oversocialized and unnatural animals much like sheep who stress themselves to death if they dont hear the bleating of other sheep.

>>211968688
You're lucky to be able to cope so well

>>211968748
There are some very nice and safe spots in Paris & France where there are only young student types who behave mostly well. I feel so shut out when I pass places like that. One time I was in Germany and there's a small street party with groups of people, I got a beer, sat somewhere and spent 30 mins scoping out the groups thinking of a way to approach them. There was no way so I finished my beer and left.

My curse is a strange one, normies find me weird for trying to get contact (which they get effortlessly and sometimes wish they could get LESS) while full robots/autists say I'm too much of a normie.

>>211968965
just get way more drunk and then socializing in these settings will feel more natural

>>211968848
But I was always under-socialized, never had any friends of "best friends" save for two years in uni. Yet I still feel this urge to hear the sheep bleet. And it gets stronger as I age (the neet life was perfect when I was 18-20).

>>211967761 (OP)
why french femmettes look as pink german hambeasts?

>>211968997
Nah I get too self-conscious about myself even when drunk, ever since I realized those ugly drunk bums who adopt just this behavior and no one likes them. Idk if you have that in the US but here it's semi-common to have older disheveled bums hanging near the young student places and sometimes trying to get cigarettes or attention.

>>211969005
Thats a (you) problem. I was invited to a punk event once and got so angry that I supressed the energy in the entire place and created a void of energy flow. All the normies just stood there instead of trashing around like retards and I ruined the event. Best interaction I had with normgroid trash ever, they learned their lesson to not bother me with stupid shit.

>>211969014
that's just how we germanics look

>>211969253
i thought your femmettes looked whitish black haired blue eyed

>>211967761 (OP)
>no cars
except the car/van of peace

>>211969587
There are a huge lot of French types just like there exist blonde blue-eyed Spainish people.

>>211969694
This won't happen, our secret services are on point now (probably the best in europe UK included) and the would-be jihadis are probably dabbing into the much more lucrative drug trade industry

>>211967761 (OP)
Imagine all those French angels and the faggot from the op locked in his room.

>>211967761 (OP)
sounds great
now that religions are not a thing the governments should mandate this so people can meet others and have childre

>>211967761 (OP)
I’m stuck in a hospital bed and it’s hot, it’s going to be a terrible night.

>>211968748
I can only see 1 nigger in that picture and he looks zesty as fuck. I guess there isn't enough mumbling in the musique

>>211968577
Same, I think some people are just doomed to live this life.
Maybe we never really had a chance.

>>211967761 (OP)
they've started making noise
it's going to be a long evening

>>211972910
I hate this. Knowing that all those people are out there having fun effortlessly and I'm not.