>>212977436 (OP)a month ago IIRC
it made me realize that I don't want sex, it made me realize that I just want to feel love and intimacy with another person, sharing life experiences, but not in a boomer way of sharing a household and dividing tasks like a family, no, I mean loving in that juvenile messy way that is more similar to a friendship, idk how to express it, the kind of teenage love that I missed, that is what I want most in life, a lover and a friend, spending time with a person I truly appreciate
fucking fucked my brain, but not fucking would have been worse for me
I guess i'm just depressed