>>213644084 (OP)I can't even have a female friend or any form of female companionship. I literally only interact with women when working, on uni projects, and when a male friend invites people and some are female, and even then they rarely talk to me. For me sex is in another universe. Yes I tried inviting and hanging out with women with whom I thought I was okay with but they all eventually ignored and ghosted me.
btw I won't pay for whores because they are disgusting and I wouldn't feel any more excitement fucking one than just masturbating, probably even less than jacking-off to something good.