>>64233929
How am I a schizo at all I think the things I say make perfect sense and I explain myself very clearly and I put alot of effort into explaining myself very clearly so people cannot twist my words and "misunderstand" me
>>64233935
youtube.com/watch?v=oYodolOqF7M
I don't really care about material things and status themselves I care about living the life I want to live and things like that definitely help
For example it would be alot easier to find someone to be in love with if I had a really nice house or mansion and drove fancy cars and had fancy clothes and makeup and fancy guns and etc etc etc
I don't see why it has to be a "fairy tale" or "fantasy" to have a traditional loving family and nice things it's not like I am demanding the person I would be in love with has that stuff I am saying I will figure out how to get that stuff somehow and then find someone who loves me to be with
And people say that the lottery is rigged and fake and stuff and maybe it is i don't know but there is a chance that it isn't and there is a chance that I could instantly become somebody people would want to be around and be with and have the entire life I want instantly so it is worth it to me but I also have other plans although they are more difficult and will take longer
Also for joining groups and stuff that is just difficult because I always feel awkward in public and around strangers but that is something I am working on
Trying things like that in the past has not worked out very well though but I am hopeful to make friends and strong bonds in the military
>>64233965
400 million dollars could do so much meaningful stuff
You could buy tons of real estate or start businesses and turn that into literally billions of dollars
I would set aside 5 to 10 million for myself 20 million for my mom and I made a list of people I like who I would give 2 million dollars to and it would be 36 million dollars and the rest invest and make billions and billions