Thread 40060152

>Be me, 24 mtf
>Staunch atheist since 12
>Started hrt 3 years ago
>Manmoding and living a miserable life
>Watch a video on youtube about an ex Scientologist describing his experience
>Wtf, I kinda like the life he is describing
>Research deeper into Scientology, jehovah's witnesses , etc...
>Built in community, strict rules to live by, takes full commitment of your life
>All of this sounds amazing?!?!

It all sounds pretty good, now I kinda wish I maybe just repped and joined a cult.
If I would just be able to brainwash myself into buying into the religion I could maybe push away my tranny urges.
Plus being able to isolate myself from my family and friends and start a new life sounds pretty appealing.
In addition, I think I could handle and wouldn't even mind more abusive positions such as being a member of Sea Org in Scientology.

>>40060152 (OP)
you're just looking for community and not truth?

ive been wanting to start a cult but my gf doesnt want me to so i cant.

>>40060152 (OP)
>It all sounds pretty good, now I kinda wish I maybe just repped and joined a cult.
i bet you can still join one

i bet it makes death feel great if you can genuinely trick yourself that heaven is on the other side

>>40060157
Not just community.
But specifically a community built around control and strict rules.

Something with a clearly laid-out path I could fully commit my time and life to.

Plus being able to believe in some crazy bullshit I think would make me think less about my dysphoria, like how could I think about it if I believed Armagedon was coming yk?

>>40060251
you can get that structure in healthier ways than joining a cult. also i dont think you can just ignore dysphoria forever

>>40060159
Unlucky, might just have to become the L. Ron Hubbard myself then

>>40060152 (OP)
>If I would just be able to brainwash myself into buying into the religion I could maybe push away my tranny urges.

I literally left the Jehova witness (i'm technically still part of the cult because i don't want my mom to stop talking to me) because I was a tranny and the tranny thougths we're too much to bear even if I believed in the religion I thougth God killing me in the war of Armagedon was better than living an eternal life of misery in paradise, I still get the wanting to join a cult urges and will probably join a catholic charity org when I'm in a comfy spot in my transitioning and can pass.

I fell for the i'm Paradise God will give you whatever you want trap, and i thougth he would make me a real woman

Also your picrel is one of the goated jw Illustrations ngl. Anyways cult life is kinda fun but you can get comunnity in other places that arent pussies about changing the world for the better and don't make you hate yourself for your tranny thougths. Also if you are going jw try to not get kids to promise their life to Jehova and live their whole lifes under the treaht of being shunned from their families of they ever change opinion

>>40060152 (OP)
god damn that is alot of rrrr rrrr's

>>40060839
Horsey!!

go for it, but NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER have children :)))

t. born in a cult and it fucked my upbringing and made me a depressed ugly midshit

>>40060152 (OP)
i'm already in a cult, it's pretty chill.