>>40073663
>I have so much trama from being forced into being fem
I think that is something that a large amount of dysphoric people have to deal with.
As I kid I was constantly forced to try and be masculine and it really was just horribly traumatic in every sense.
>even if legos and Beyblade’s were waaay cooler than Barbie
You are allowed to have your opinions. Even if they are wrong.
>I just wish I was born a man because my life wouldn’t have been some big battle
Being a woman is hard. In many ways it is just easier to be a guy. But wanting a more easy life does not make you a ftm, it just makes you human.
I personally transitioned because I knew since I was a child that in the deepest most levels of myself, I was a woman. Being a man was this constant prison that was slowly killing me. Transition or suicide were the only options I had and I picked transition. Living as a woman is much harder then living as a guy, but I accept it because to live any other way would kill me.
There are different levels of dysphoria. To me it sounds like you are beating yourself up over a desire to present more masculine and this view of the grass being greener on the otherside of the gender fence. This is a common and very manageable level of dysphoria; Butchmaxxing and trying out topical T can be enough to lessen that dysphoria.
>>40074270
For some dysphoria can be as small as occasional wistful desires or fantasies of being the opposite gender. For others it can be crippling or even life ending. It is a very broad spectrum, but more severe cases tend to be rare.
>>40074604
Cis het guys are just gross and this grosses is expressed in part via their sexuality.
In a better society we would accept how counter productive this is for the entire species and attempt to fix them. But for now the best thing you can do is pretend they don't exist.
