why do i push people away as soon as i get close to them? i've done it so many times i lost count. i wanted him so bad and now he's gone and he's probably already forgotten about me
>>40068603 (OP) couple of ideas 1. Viewing yourself a bad object unworthy of anything. 2. A feeling of inevitable Failure. That it was doomed for the start. 3. A deep fear of rejection. Easier to reject people then to be rejected
>>40068603 (OP) Hate to say it but it's for the best. They will eventually get bored and leave you anyway. I know this sounds bitter but it's really not. I'm not bitter about it. I accept it and acknowledge it. Humans are not reliable romantic partners and they never will be. I'll keep trying and believing in love, though.