Thinking of Madotsuki-maxxing

it's where you cut off all contact, make your room minimalistic as possible, live in the comfort of your apartment, have a game console or two, a bunch of books to read and you sleep your days away.

I unironically want to be madotsuki. Shes everything I'm not.

play 2kki
it takes a while getting every wallpaper, kura puzzle, effect, ending, etc
you can waste even more time editing the wiki

>>40079812 (OP)
I already relate to her a lot despite her never saying one line of dialogue. I just wish I wasn't a fucking 5'10 Gigahon ugly mixiod balrog whos not even close to cute.

If I'm being real for a second, I'm so goddamn ugly. Like REALLY fucking ugly. So ugly I'll never have friends

this character feels like a warm hug if that makes sense? I Will never even come close to how pretty madotsuki is, but I still aspire to be her.

This probably sounds like schizo/autism bait, but depressingly it's not.

This character is always on my mind. her stoic attitude, quiet demeanour, dreams, her girly appearance, and even her fucking room make me so jealous.

I fucking hate myself so much.

>>40079812 (OP)
its not worth it, it becomes more and more inescapable the longer you are a hikineet
based yume nikki enjoyer tho


>>40079844
real, or yume nikki online, i've had a ton of fun lately collecting badges in the games, they have a ton of the fangames on there, they also have their own 2kki type game, collective unconscious.
they also have daily and weekly expeditions to different areas just to give people something to do.

i love yume nikki fangames and other games with the similar yn/lsd dream emulator vibes

>>40079879
definitely a bit autism bait, but also relatable. i relate to her feelings of isolation and loneliness so much, and i relate to your feelings of self hatred and desire to escape
but i love art of madotsuki surrounded by her friends, other characters from the dream world like monoe, monoko, and poniko. i wish i had what they do

>>40079879
i stopped identifying with female characters because we're just too far apart for it to be realistic

>>40080239
sometimes i prefer playing as cute male characters if the female main is oversexualized or hyperfeminine, but mado and uro are so pixelated and abstract they just feel cozy to me, not threatening or anything

>>40079812 (OP)
i did this. it sucks and now im much happier. talking with ppl and actually doing things is great. life is short and being stuck inside sucks

>>40080190
>its not worth it, it becomes more and more inescapable

it's too late already. I'm already a hiki, but im not at all cute like madotsuki. I'm hideous to most people, so why even bother going outside. no one likes me.

I wish I had friends too, but that's just not an option for me.

>>40080448
well you probably have the privilege of not being ugly as shit like me. I'm mentally a wreck and I don't pass at all. I look like an ugly crazed man. I'm not cute, I'm not pretty, I'm not funny, I'm not talented, I'm not skilled, I'm literally nothing.

who tf would want to be friends with me? I belong in my self isolation.

>>40080382
Is it bad I find mado sexy...

>>40080647
no

>>40080647
nope, not at all

>>40080190
Yume Nikki online!! Does anyone else here play? I would love to explore with y’all on there

>>40081339
Bump

>>40080786
Nice pic but I prefer to harvest riper buds

>>40079844
I don't get this game at all

>>40080636
>I wish I had friends too, but that's just not an option for me.
on the internet, no one can see how you look

but yeah, i really don't know how to cope with it. im ugly and have many years on hrt, without malefailing at all.
the problem with being a hiki is that money inevitably becomes an issue. i genuinely don't deserve the kindness my dad gives me by still supporting me after all these years, but once he retires its over for me

>>40081339
>Does anyone else here play?
yeah! i've been playing a bit less lately, but i try to at least do weekly expeditions

>>40079812 (OP)
>cut off all contact
>room
who's paying for your room
im effectively doing this but my bankroll is $17000 left and no job no income no apartment doesnt last forever
might neetmaxx and just do student loans and start college at the old age of 23

>>40082080
Would you want to play together later today?

I'm losing my fucking mind.

no one is ever going to love me again. Neets aren't loved or wanted. Once you've reached 2 years of neetdom, its over.

social skills?

GONE

friends if you had any?

GONE

Good cognitive function

GONE

I want to jump off a balcony too. If I were to ever off myself one day, I want to go out In a similar way.

>>40082080
>>40082417
Hey nona… my discord is eye_eye_ if you want to add me there so we can coordinate to play sometime

>>40083356
i would off myself too but too many reasons to live such as one piece, kh4 and deltarune
maybe once all of these get finished i could consider it

i wish i still had my femboy practice bf but hes extremly mentally unstable and will not talk with me anymore for the most part which is why i kinda gave up on him (still have him in my contacts in CASE he might come back)

gonna be 30 in 1 and a half year.....

>>40079812 (OP)
Troon core games

>>40084631
yeah..

>>40081339
I haven't played YNO in a while but it's cozy to just walk around and chat with friends. I'm a bit weird though and I've been a NEET for almost 15y