was any other tranny extremely secretive and unwilling to open up to anyone growing up? trying to see if this is common

yeah

>>40084344 (OP)
>>40084365
Beat your local tranny to death, hang trannies from lamp-posts, slit tranny throats with switchblades

>>40084374
Least violent repper lmao the Sharty will be a trans board in 5 years.

>>40084424
Autism to tranny pipeline

ugh yes very much so. that’s why/how i boymoded for so long

yes... expressed myself authentically and femininely at like 6-8 years old then got bullied for it by my family and totally clammed up until present day and became retarded. tale as old as time

>>40084344 (OP)
yeah i was, though much less than i am now

yeh i still mostly keep to myself these days. never truly formed any coping skills for my deep rooted paranoia of people finding out im a fag. never really formed any social identity cause of it either. im so lost, devoid of any tru human experience

>>40084344 (OP)
Not just growing up that's a fundamental aspect of who I am and have always been regardless of anything else. Less than a handful of people have ever been invited to share in my world. It's not that I think I'm better than everyone else, I just don't need them. If we build a close personal relationship, it's because I picked you up do it with. Simple as that.

>>40084344 (OP)
Yeh

>>40084344 (OP)
i had a girl best friend in 5th/6th grade and she was the only one i ever opened up to ab anything till i was an adult,
but i ruined our friendship by being a scared confused gay kid who was afraid ppl would think i was gay and got pressured into asking her out by my dad and friends and it nuked our friendship.

probably would’ve realized i was trans and wasn’t just gay if i never lost her as a friend. i was already having thoughts of being trans i just literally didn’t know what being trans or hrt was till later and having someone who would actually listen and care the way she did would’ve helped an insane amount.

desu one of my biggest regrets in life was losing her as a friend. we were so close one of my only real best friends in life like i had no friends b4 her and we talked all day in school i would spend an entire week + weekend at her house or back n forth between our moms before we had to go back to our dads and could only text / talk in school. actually started crying typing this out lol holy shit i’m a loser.

one time she spent the night at my grandparents and we were going to sleep in the same room (we normally did) and my grandparents freaked tf out and i could never understand why it was such an issue but it’s because i was born in this stupid fucking man body

i hate being trans so much i miss all of my friends who were women so much and now i’m in a new city scared every cis woman hates me

>>40084344 (OP)
yes
>>40084374
pleasee..

>>40084344 (OP)
yes

>>40084344 (OP)
yes bc my parents are toxic and I had no friends and I’m still like that bc I haven’t improved on that front

>>40084585
>never truly formed any coping skills for my deep rooted paranoia of people finding out im a fag
this is so relatable omg
I’ve spent so much time pretending to be normal straight dude its made me confused about myself

I'd secretively open you up extremely if you know what i mean

>>40084344 (OP)
Yeah
I hide from other trans as well
I am a mistake
Not quite woman not quite human

>>40084424
its insane how many sharties have agp/agamp. id say its like at least half of the entire site if not more

>>40084344 (OP)
Yes, it's called severe social trauma and suffering abuse and/or neglect.