>>40084852 (OP)Notes for JREP for anon
3:20 contradiction, claims that everything he says is part of a character but also claims to be feeling very vulnerable. This could be a set up for plausible deniability outside of this video or this could be truly be the thoughts of a character he's playing. I believe it's both, his descriptions of his thoughts seem too accurate, showing he's lived through these thoughts before
Suicidal ideation, in context to this video, is found in the term "I want to die" but not in the sense that ppl think. Instead of truly wanting to die, a person can say this but mean they want to vanish or stop feeling something that they believe that they can't otherwise avoid, usually pain of some sort. Still, it's considered suicidal ideation because it's a person's thoughts of wanting to be dead.
4:50 minization. Its a form of coping for some and invalidation in others. Its honestly a very slippery slide and the only way to tell the difference between them is how you feel after minimizing the object. For example, minizaing as a cope will be "this bad thing happened to me but at least its not as bad as this other thing that happened to me" and then you feel better. Minimizing as invalidation is seen on this video. "I'm sad but at least I'm not a starving child" is a sentence that makes him feel worse. Invalidation can come from many parts of you, insecurity, low self esteem, fear of judgement, etc. In this case, he's saying this statement as a way to cope but it fails, making him feel worse. The resulting guilt will continue to make the feeling worse and it may turn into a cycle.
5:20why does talking make you feel worse?
theres a lot of reasons. You may feel like the person you talk to doesn't understand your struggle, there is a disconnection between you and the person you're talking to (or people in general), or you feel helpless in the situation you're in.