Hello /LGBT/ards. Recently it's come to my attention that I care about a certain man in my life way too much. I always assumed any other relationship I had felt shallow in comparision because people are bitches who I can't trust and considered myself incapable of love, because in over two decades on this planet I have never ever felt anything other than lust towards some hot women and only as long as they remained clothed to be honest.
I am not sure if what I feel is love, but considering I am writing this wiping away my tears I spilled over the idea that I am not (going to be) the most important person in his life anymore and I honestly can't take it. He was supposed to always be there. I can't help but compare every interaction I have to ones I had with him, can't help but fantasize about meeting him every waking moment. I remember, back in primary school when we were reading a poem and the teacher asked us to decide whether this level of emotion was only friendship or love already. I stood, by far the longest by the idea the emotion being described was friendship. I suppose... I suppose that settles it, eh? What do you think? Being angry about your best bro drifting away to eventually get some bitch pregnant probably (I hope not because he could just stay by my forever) is being a bit obsessed and not entirely straight right? I have never cared about this much about anyone or anything else frankly

same, could this level of obsession over someone indicitive of bpd? i almost roped when my fp said he wanted to take a break

>>40088117 (OP)
What you're describing sounds like romantic love, but who knows, humans are complicated. Some people feel jealousy toward their friends, and the bond is completely platonic. I also have difficulty knowing when my obsession is a crush or not. But I can easily tell since I blush around them and I'm always imagining scenarios in my head about me and that person.

>>40088117 (OP)
I dont think you love him, I think that you think that he belongs to you. And the action of him not being there for you hurts.

When you fantasize about him, have you ever viewed it in a sexual sense?

>>40088777
>When you fantasize about him, have you ever viewed it in a sexual sense?
Occasionally, not often though. He's not very attractive, just kind of your average man, not masculine but not twinky. When I did it felt more like "I want him to do it because then he wouldn't abandon me so easily"
>I dont think you love him, I think that you think that he belongs to you
I mean I am aware he is his own person, but nobody will ever care about him as much as I do, I am sure. He shouldn't concern himself with lesser relationships when he has me, I have always prioritized him alone and it would be nice if he reciprocated that

fucking normgroids thinking having romantic or sexual thoughts/feelings about another man once makes you exclusively gay forever and you can never look at women again and every sensation of attraction you experienced towards women was a lie, is liking more than one thing really THAT much of a threat?

>>40088884
>nobody will ever care about him as much as I do, I am sure. He shouldn't concern himself with lesser relationships when he has me, I have always prioritized him alone and it would be nice if he reciprocated that
bpdmoment

>>40088973
>bpd
I don't have it, I think so at least

>>40088884
>I want him to do it because then he wouldn't abandon me so easily
>He shouldn't concern himself with lesser relationships when he has me, I have always prioritized him alone and it would be nice if he reciprocated that
>into women
That you OP?

>>40089119
No, I am not a woman