Anonymous
6/18/2025, 1:17:19 AM No.40091164
I've been stuck in this strange spiral for years, not really a man and not really able to be a girl either, just lost in limbo.
Autistic and awkward and overthink everything, talking to people feels impossible sometimes, For years longed to make connection, to feel what it's like to be held.
I've started to explore transition long term, low dose estrogen just to feel softer and it's done things to me emotionally and physically. like there's a version of me that could be real, that could be loved.
but I'm scared about losing the parts of me that still work, scared of being someone I cant explain to my family, of looking like a freak.
Still, all i want is something gentle, to fall asleep on call with someone who understands, to sit in silence with another soft mtf who doesn't need to be perfect or confident, just present.
It's really dumb to post this, just don't know anywhere else to put these feelings.
Autistic and awkward and overthink everything, talking to people feels impossible sometimes, For years longed to make connection, to feel what it's like to be held.
I've started to explore transition long term, low dose estrogen just to feel softer and it's done things to me emotionally and physically. like there's a version of me that could be real, that could be loved.
but I'm scared about losing the parts of me that still work, scared of being someone I cant explain to my family, of looking like a freak.
Still, all i want is something gentle, to fall asleep on call with someone who understands, to sit in silence with another soft mtf who doesn't need to be perfect or confident, just present.
It's really dumb to post this, just don't know anywhere else to put these feelings.
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