>>40093575 (OP)i'm going to leave you alone bc that's what you want and i'm sorry for being so crazy.
it just hurts so much to see you hurting so bad and so lonely and i wish more than anything that i could be the one to hold you and make your time in this life at least a little bit less difficult and lonely.
when i sent that rlly long drunk message to you, about how i was accepting that i wasn't going to be involved with you romantically i didn't mean that i didn't want that. and if you wanted that, i did (and do) too. i know it doesn't make anything better but i just want you to know that i wasn't trying to abandon you. quite the opposite. i just wanted to be there for you in whatever capacity you needed at the time. right now you need my silence and so i will give it to you.
i'll probably try to reach out to you in a year or so. maybe we'll both have grown or changed but maybe that will have been a good thing.
when i let those three little words slip out just before prom i meant it. and still mean them now. and will mean them for as long as i live.