>>40115326ok, maybe 90% is an exaggeration. Although to be fair, 100% of dysphoric males repped before medical transition became an option lmao.
I basically realized my trans identity was wrapped up in an AGP fantasy of being female. Before, I had felt like enough of a woman being on estrogen and having FFS. But I took another look around and realized I just didn't feel like a woman. I felt like an estrogenized male. I basically just lost faith in my transition.
The fact that I have been able to tolerate detransition shows I don't have too much autoandrophobia.
Imo thinking of detrooning and living as a man with AGP as "repressing" is unhelpful. I'm just a male which makes me a man. I don't need to worry about my identity. I'm growing my hair back out. I can present as a fruity, sort of alt bi dude if I want. I can't bring myself to say "my gender identity is male", so I've just rejected the concept of gender identity entirely.