No matter what I do, nobody ever calls me a girl or a woman.
As soon as a pic or a vid of me hits online, people use pronouns "it" "that" or "this" and borderline goes he him.
Ive been on for estrogen for 20 years and lived a full life as a woman.
What this experience shows me, as confirmed as it has always been, is that it is very apparent that I'm male and whoever associated with me IRL that treated me like a woman were LIARS.
It's hard to pivot my lifestyle at this point, I can accept being an androgynous older woman but just full on people calling me a guy is wild.
So if you little figures wonder why I'm out here wylding on you it's because I want you to know how pointless all this is.
You can keep running, hiding, find little corners of the world where you might fit in, but you will never outrun what you truly are.

>>40128192 (OP)
Yeh I know. I'm not transitioning at 13 I started at 21. It's a lot easier to pass irl than online but that's literally just ppl glancing over you. If someone is paying full attention to their phone and a picture of me pops up I'm 100% being identified as male. Do u think it was a choice tho? I don't want to be a Cisman i don't like being trans either one is like the only way my body doesn't scream to kill itself.

>>40128208
In my case it's worse because I'm also ethnic so people just compare me to some celebrity they know and completely negate my humanity altogether.

They say "Hey, don't give up! Keep pushing and your dreams will come true!"
No, no it doesn't. I've had dozens of plastic surgeries and literally decades of estrogen running through my body.

No, not everything can just "happen for you." When I found a job where my coworkers accepted me as a woman which I worked for the past 6 years, I really thought things were going my way, oh no, oh hell no. I was just being used badly. And by the end of it I was humiliated and thrown out, which is why I'm here more often now.

This life is hell for most of us. Even the people I dated just saw a gullible and vulberable person and just kept tearing at me. I didn't understand why they were being so mean but I get it, because they were playing with me from the beginning. I just don't know what I can do anymore.

When i had my hair long, like LONG i got called woman a lot. Bet youre a bald faggot.

I'm a 6'2 hon and I feel the same

>>40128309
anon this is not the time to test my gangster Im in a bit of a soft spot alright so I need you to chill my nigga

strangers gender me female most of the time ppl i know gender me male to make me sad.

>>40128192 (OP)
yeah. i very obviously don't pass but i only get misgendered every couple years. i don't know whether to find it reassuring that most people will do the nice thing irl or to be depressed that iwnbaw

>>40128398
I NEVER expect people to be nice. Human beings are animals just like others, and on top of that we are on the top of the food chain. It's just that some people are higher up on the food chain than others, and if you're volunteerily mutilating yourself through chemicals and surgery you are definitely lower on the food chain.
Do not ever expect people to be 'nice'. Especially women, who may give you a compliment or just be nice to you and move on, they are harbouring A LOT of judgements about you that will only unravel in your face if you poke them around enough.
Men you just get what you get in your face. At least they don't waste your time.

This is advanced Troonology OP and I dont think a lot of the babytroons online at the moment are ready for a conversation like this. You can try discouraging them and vent, but the game goes on. You're right, there's no running from it. You're cooked. We're all cooked. The things we do to survive and be comfortable all the very things that turn against us.