I just want to be a cute twink/femboy. Instead I look like the neckbeard from southpark. Tall, ugly/asymmetrical face, gigantic skull, barrel chest, weird proportions, hairy as fuck, masculine as fuck (but in an ogre way), ugly skin conditions, fat, etc.
And the worst part is that most of the people on this board look exactly the way that I want to look.

I don't see why I should keep living. Everything is empty, hollow, and boring. There's just no point if I can't have the one thing that I want the most.

>>40131660 (OP)
why do you want to be a "femboy"?

>>40131672
Because I want to be cute and feminine but I don't want to be a woman. Duh.

>>40131660 (OP)
> I don't see why I should keep living
i mean you're gonna die anyway. you can always try to have a crazy before/after transition. you see that sometimes on transition timeline subs.
ugly men -> beautiful woman is hard af and most twinks here won't understand your struggles, but there are people who've made it.
why not try?

>>40131660 (OP)
morals aside, here's what you'll wanna do:
> Tall
lie down with your knees on top of a train track and wait for the train to amputate your legs. go in a wheelchair
> ugly/asymmetrical face
facial feminisation surgery
> barrel chest
wear a corset 24/7 for the next two years
> weird proportions
get on estrogen, work out & get on pioglitazone
> hairy as fuck
laser, electrolysis, epilation, waxing, sugaring, etc.
> ugly skin conditions
cleanse, exfoliate, moisturize, sunscreen, retinol, etc. basically get a daily skin care routine and stick to it
if this is really so important to you, you can have it... but somehow I doubt that it is haha

>>40131724
>but somehow I doubt that it is haha
I think I would beat you to death if I ever saw you in person.

>>40131784
i don't doubt it, but luckily I'm so naturally fem irl that nobody has dared to ever even hit me and just let's me yap all day long :3
or I have big dudes around me to protecc and attac

>>40131689
I don't know if i understand why you would want that but, if it's really important to you, than just do whatever you can to change it i suppose. i'm sorry you're so upset about your body, but there's definitely at least some things you can do that would at least make it relatively improved. you don't like being hairy? get laser. you don't like being fat? lose the weight. you could even take hrt if you wanted to. if you're unhappy with your body then it's worth trying whatever you can to bring it closer to your ideal or at least lessen the things that cause you distress, even if you don't think you'll ever be completely satisfied. self improvement is the answer

>>40132876
>self improvement is the answer
Is it really though?
Cause I've did all that before. And when I was almost at the end of what I could reasonably do (lost a lot of weight, shaved all my body hair, spent a retarded amount of money at the dermatologist, exercise, hrt), I saw that I would still never look even remotely the way I want or even 1% as good as other people. And immediately after that I became even more depressed and stopped doing all that shit.

>>40131660 (OP)
im sorry anon

it really bothers me that whenever you see someone looks good, twink or tranny and it seems like that persons whole identity is really that person it hurts. but the truth is they could have been in the same boat as you. its weird to know that its all ultimately luck and its superficial, yet it totally changes your life and the kind of person you are able to be.

>>40134688
>yet it totally changes your life and the kind of person you are able to be.
biggest ropefuel ive read in a while desu

>>40134711
all you can do is try your best and dont look at other ppl, you could have been born in north korea or some shit, remember all those people are just lucky, its all fate.