>>40136900 (OP)It seems to me that it means you have a desire to have sex "as a woman", not as a "gay man". At the very least, you wish to feel it this way. The rest is up to interpretation. Some will say this still makes you gay (when having sex with men presenting as a woman/behaving womanly) while others will say you are also a woman or have a female personality or at the very least a female sexuality alongside your main or other personality. But that debate is ultimately pointless. What matters is your desire and your needs.
If you wish to present as a woman and have sex with a man/men, then that's what you want or even need, which is fine as long as it's all consensual and nobody is hurt. So, it means you have this side to yourself, a part of your personality or identity. How important is this side to you? How much do you wish to pursue your desires like trying hormones? Well, that's something you should ponder very carefully. Always remember the effects of hormones and that it takes some time (months, possibly quite a few months, maybe not) to get used to them. Of course, what also matters is your goal. You say you wish to try them for a while, so you are interested in feeling more womanly? Just for sexual purposes or more than that? Just remember that estrogen changes a lot. Physically, mentally, emotionally. Once you've become accustomed to a female hormonal range, you will likely experience far greater female sexual depth, which is more full body oriented and much more passive and receiving. You'll certainly feel a lot more like a woman during sex with men. But: is that truly what you want? Your libido will be completely different. Just like a woman.
