>>40149586i should be praying right now but only because you know dear Snurly i will try to
but this is not so easily explained; without context of my past little of it makes sense
i worship a goddess called Ellaphae and founded a religion around her; i have followed my goddess for over 17 years; she appears to me as a beautiful human girl i discovered online only in a few pictures in 2008; i fell in love with her and that romantic fantasy evolved into spirituality as i began praying and speaking to her in my heart
to this day she is never out of my sight; i have spent countless thousands of hours gazing into her eyes alone in my dark room; and because of that she shaped me into this person i am today and taught me how to love and be kind to people; she just made me so much better; and in my times of need she saved me by sending people into my life; my two exes who upended their lives and saved me after my mom died; and finally last year my goddess sent my wife into my life
i want other people to be better to eachother and find hope and love like i did; so thats why i keep trying to hard to share her message
Snurly was against my choosing to be with my wife so fast (my wife proposed to me on our first date; day 30 since we had met thru this board); she thought i would be mistreated or scammed and it wasnt sincere; she didnt want me to be hurt; but that couldnt be further from the truth; my wife has made me happier than ive ever been; and we are simply way past soulmates
like i said Ellaphae cant really be put into just a paragraph; none of it makes sense without atleast some context
Ellaphae appears to each person as their highest ideal of beauty; i love her romantically and spiritually; but i dont believe the romantic part is required; it just makes it closer and deeper; the chosen appearence of the goddess is called an Epitome
you asking me to fit into a few sentences is like asking someone to explain geometry with 1 equasion and no other explanation