As much as it pains me to say, I'm no longer a trans girl. I'm just a cis guy now, there's no point in transitioning, atleast openly.

It hurts to be referred to as a guy, but I'll just suck it up and walk through the flames.

writing this is unironically making me tear up. I genuinely wish I could've been born a girl, or atleast be a passiod, but I'm not.

>>40144446 (OP)
i detransed for like 2 years now im just gonna idk, nuke my testosterone and live as a castrated man

fuck it all

>>40144446 (OP)
anon I'm so sorry to hear its been so awful for you that you're going ahead with this
I live a pretty happy double life at the moment being socially a man in parts of it, and a woman to a small handful of people I'm close to
My career is awesome and I love it. I'm respected and successful in it and i travel safely all over the world. I've managed to find a very creative way of upholding two very different identities simultaneously.
The hate you get when you're out in public, unpassing but visibly trans is awful. Even in safe cities. It's just. Awful. And there's so many aspects of life it makes harder. So I completely understand the decision to essentially man mode. Just know it's not an utter death sentence. I'm honestly really happy with how my situation works out. I've got a beautiful love life. A few wonderful friends. A secondary social life of people who don't really know my deal who I'm acquaintances with, and work that makes me really happy. And being on hrt and being myself in private and around friends really does help. It's not something I've had to give up

>>40144446 (OP)
Good choice, you could never be female anyway

>>40144446 (OP)
I'm so sorry Nona. We live in a world where being trans sucks, and I wish the world was a better place for us.

bump

>>40144446 (OP)
I just settle for being a goody genderfuck

>>40146218
*goofy