Did other kids traumatize you for being gay growing up?

>>40151355 (OP)
Yes and I don't know how to deal with this. There's no resources and I'm basically socially crippled for life. I totally lack a social foundation.

t. Straight tranny

>>40151413
Can you tell me some specific things that happened that you remember?

When I was a kid I was deathly afraid of being perceived as gay. Now as an adult it feels like nothing I do is gay not even having sex with men.

>>40151355 (OP)
My other lesbian friends would expose me to sexual acts when I was 10 and very uncomfortable w it

Now I have a rape kink and I'm scared of cis woman

>>40151444
What are you scared cis women would do to you?

>>40151463
Not what cis woman would do to me it's more so having cis female friends and my association with my ex friends and cis woman in general (retarded I know im trying to work w my therapist on it)

I always hung out with cis guys before then and they have been my only majority cis girl friend group, so it's my only real socialization of cis woman outside of family
So now socializing with cis woman is awkward and scary

Maybe that's another reason why I'm a chaser

>>40151355 (OP)
less for being gay, more for being flamboyant, having long hair, playing female leads in a local kids theatre group, having only female friends and the like.
they ruined me, made me rep. its gen absolutely over ngl

t. repper turned lateshit, likes dudes

>>40151531
hating people for being flamboyant is hating them for being gay

>>40151355 (OP)
No, they traumatized me into attempting to be straight

>>40151545
i dont think i was attracted to men before like age 11, i didnt have any attraction i think

>>40151355 (OP)
I would argue that nothing you could ever do would mean you're gay, including having sex with men because it doesn't necessitate you're androphilic and I'm still as based as ever.

>>40151582
I noticed other boys well before puberty, maybe you did too, but because you weren't supposed to do that, you kinda pretend it never happened.

>>40151355 (OP)
yeah i spent all of middle school being shoved and laughed at and called a faggot. didn't even have to come out

>>40151592
well yeah but i felt no sexual attraction as a child, as far as i remember (then again i dont remember a lot of my childhood, like 2 or 3 ripped up memories, not much more)

>>40151602
I mean it's just sort of attraction, I think placing a need on it to be explicitly sexual to "count" is a bit silly, that's not how kids think.

>>40151610
yeah sorry i dont think i remember a lot of that desu, i just know what i did and what happened to me but not what i felt.

>>40151628
doesn't mean it didn't happen
it's convenient you don't remember the part conservatives claim doesn't exist and can't happen

>>40151660
at the end of the day trauma can influence us or something

>>40151672
vague...

>you need a bra

>>40151687
long story short
>gets bullied
>gets ostracised cus others dont wana be targets aswell
>goes online for friends
>finds queer youth forums
you know what happens when vulnerable boy is on forums like that lol

>>40151355 (OP)
not for being gay necessarily(only came out to one friend senior year).
more so because I just was I guess attractive enough for football players to make sexual "jokes" about me, the crossdressing ones didn't help my confused dysphoric ass either.
talk about a more homophobic yet homoerotic experience, that damn hs male locker room.

>>40151355 (OP)
no, I didn’t know I was gay until I was 18, sadly, I was on the other side. I won’t say I regret it because I was just replicating my environment, but accepting that I was gay was really tough because of it.

>>40151765
maybe there were hints you ignored

>>40151798
I've got a few, I do remember finding girls in general annoying as fuck back then. One time a girl asked me to come over for sex and sent me a video fingering herself, I got grossed out and lied saying I was sick so I could stay home and play ds2 with my friend.
This girl was also the one who I had my first kiss with, it was during a party and I was pressured into it, I didn't hate it, but didn’t enjoy it either, I was just glad my friends would stop messing with me about it.