>>40157773i was too out of it in the moment to feel or remember more than flashes (yay knockout drops) but after the fact i was so fucking nauseous and disgusted and in pain for multiple days, i wanted to die so bad
im better now, i got therapy and i had friends help me out, but im still shaking writing this
it genuinely baffles me how anyone would WANT this aside from some kind of twisted self-destructive ritual