What do you still live for, anon?

>>40158030 (OP)
boobies

>>40158030 (OP)
I don't live, I merely exist.

>>40158030 (OP)
the 4 people that would be sad for more than a day if i stopped

>>40158041
I hope you treasure them, anon
I don't have anyone who would mourn me
>>40158040
It's not really a life yeah It's just survival
>>40158033
Real

>>40158030 (OP)
1 on 1 relationships are pretty good
Always the lonely people are the best

They seem bad at first, but they always get much better

>>40158030 (OP)
survival instinct

>>40158030 (OP)
im drowning in religion to cope. I basically crash whenever I stop

>>40158030 (OP)
my family, and once that goes away all ill have is the delusional idea that i can be happy and loved. and make something, i really want to make something

>>40158030 (OP)
Trannies

in the right situation i will be happy and i do believe thats true. I love much of the world and i love other people and experiencing new things without cynicism. I’m miserable but i can be happy, we’ll see if the transgender stuff ever truly catches up to me

boyfriend
id feel bad dying and leaving him like that

>>40158030 (OP)
honestly, just a few manga i want to see through to the end. if it werent for them id be splattered on some asphalt

>>40158030 (OP)
Honestly idk. Going to go off my meds. Hopefully going to kms

no reason
i just need to clean my room and then i can leave
idc who i hurt anymore

>>40158030 (OP)
there's a light in me that won't extinguish.

>>40158179
>repper is happier than the troons here
Lmao

>>40158030 (OP)
my boyfriend
if he wasnt around i would be long dead but i cant bring myself to abandon him

>>40158030 (OP)
Nothing I’m just on a loop of watching YouTube eating and sleeping if I find a discreet painless way to kill my self I’ll do it

>>40158030 (OP)
maybe one day finding a boyfriend

>>40158030 (OP)
BA in a couple months
hopefully i can arrange for srs consult in that time, then i wait for that
and hopefully at srs consult the price quote will be within my budget at the time, then i wait for that
and i will no longer have a reason to kill myself after

The hope that one day hrt will be banned for adults and I get to watch troons seethe in real time as they finally get btfo for good.

>>40158503
diy exists

>>40158509
If we can fire missiles at Iran we can fire missiles at the factories producing raw estrogen being distributed clandestinely + most people are too lazy to DIY - notice how trannies are too stupid to buy opiates online to kill themselves and instead take Tylenol, Benadryl, SN, and other retard shit to avoid having to do a little extra work?

>>40158519
>just randomly bomb china and india to target a non-harmful substance used by 0.1% of the population
yea sounds like a good idea desu

also its ridiculous easy to buy diy shit, nothing like the risk or difficulty of buying actually scheduled drugs

you can get E online in like 20 minutes on the regular internet. and the websites wont be getting taken down because no other countries are gonna follow a hypothetical ban

looking like a bad bitch :3
oh and the chance of bussing down to this girls place to go shooting and kiss

>>40158216
I didn't say I was happy, far from it. Im just saying I'm pretty resilient.

>>40158532
it's extremely harmful

>>40158548
sure bud

>>40158548
you're literally on the premier diy tranny forum just ask here what the risks are lol
you dont have to plug your ears and spout bullshit, educate yourself

>>40158030 (OP)
i made a friend last year.

>>40158030 (OP)
Cuz why not? I know im a failure in most peoples eyes but i just want to be happy and have fun with the only life i get

>>40158352
omg hi bestie thats what i do

>>40158179
Keep it up anon, hope you find happiness, this is precisely why I continue, don't let anyone try to dull your soul.

>>40158030 (OP)
Nothing
Other people
My corpse is animated but my life is empty
Once the people in my life don’t need me I’ll go meet lost loved ones in purgatory

i'm not sure. my online friends don't like me, but i think i'd rather be reprimanded for every thing i do rather than being alone

>>40158568
It saddens me to see there's so much hate, your life is precious, embrace it dearly.

>>40158558
we have a massive surveillance apparatus, we know what everyone is doing on the internet, if the government was inclined to crack down on diy they could (and should)
preventing trans people from taking cross sex hormones is more important than maintaining roads, medical care, diplomacy, balancing the budget, etc.
It should be the #1 focus of the government untill all of you are eliminated for good.

>>40158654
you tried too hard and made the bait obvious

>>40158684
you say that but 20 years from now when this actually happens you will have heard it here first - and I really do think we could do a total tyrannical crackdown on trannies AND that doing so would improve society significantly by removing the worst of the male female supremacists from the earth

>>40158736
>could
but nobody will
too bad, so sad!
go bait elsewhere pol tourist

>>40158758
they will once they realize how devious and divise trannies are trannies believe in the worst sort of hateful propganda and apply it to their own bodies, removing trannies would genuinely bring society closer and make people less ashamed of their sexuality

>>40158030 (OP)
BEAUTIFUL HEAVENLY DIVINE LOVE WITH MY WIFE <3 <3 <3 )*

>>40158831
Based <3

>>40158030 (OP)
I'm not so much afraid of death as feeling regret and pain in my last few moments of panic.

Also my actual reasons for wanting to kill myself are embarrassing and unsympathetic, plus I don't want my partner to follow my example.

It's not much. I wouldn't be alive if I had decent opioids or a gun.

>>40158030 (OP)
I'm not so much afraid of death as feeling regret and pain in my last few moments of panic.

Also my actual reasons for wanting to kill myself are embarrassing and unsympathetic, plus I don't want my partner to follow my example.

It's not much. I wouldn't be alive if I had decent opioids or a gun.

>>40158030 (OP)
You only ask so you can destroy it

I'll rope once my money runs out

>>40158030 (OP)
I’m curious to see what happens next

>>40158030 (OP)
take a wild guess :p

I hate you all.

I'm trying to avoid coming to the conclusion that I should kill myself. It feels self-serving and a bit stupid. This stubborn endeavour is enough to keep me occupied for now

>>40158030 (OP)
My girlfriend and the fact my death would traumatize my friends and family

>>40158030 (OP)

This weekend, in NYC, the first ever title fight in Muay Thai between two trans women is going down. Sanctioned by the NYSAC and everything. I don't care how long it takes, I don't care if my muscles are too masculine, I will be a world champion.

>>40158030 (OP)
my cat

>>40158030 (OP)
I want to at least live to see the American Tricentennial, then we'll take it day-by-day after that

i have hobbies and there people that somewhat care about me