Is it because I’m faketrans or because I’m a narc and an avpd?
I am losing everyone and yet I’m ok
I wish I could cry

why yall agphons blog here every day

I’m a cis male THOUGH

>>40159439 (OP)

Idk man that's a lot to answer. Well I can probably answer it if you're honest with me with enough time but this is a forum ma'am. See a therapist.

>>40159439 (OP)
male socialization is extremely difficult to overcome

Op here I figured it out
It’s because I never truly loved him
I told him now and if he leaves me it will be bad but
Still I won’t cry
Becayse I felt nothing anyway
I’m good at making shit up

>>40159439 (OP)
lmk if you figure I've only ever been able to cry for real like 2-3 times now in the 2 years I've been on hrt. I feel like crying often but it like just doesn't happen and it was the same if not worse pre hrt.

>>40159694
wuud? I shed a few tears every two or three days, but it's honestly very subtle. Like my eyes just get wet a lot and if I feel safe I let the feeling linger a bit and cry - but it's not overpowering, more of a choice usually

>>40160130
idk if I'm sad I feel sad and my eyes will water like maybe 1 or 2 tears but it doesn't feel like I'm crying. it's like my brain trys to but then stops right away

>>40159439 (OP)
>I am losing everyone and yet I’m ok
sound like heaven

>>40160268

It's a lie though, they'll just relapse like almost everyone else lol.

>>40159439 (OP)
trauma will make it harder to cry

so will medications

>>40160356
Is this true?
I cry sometimes but at not convenient times and when it’s like makes sense to cry I don’t
I just don’t wanna be a numb monster(m*id)
>>40160376
I wish I was trutrans like you <\3

>>40160130
Sounds nice
It’s much more subtle with me no waterworks just eyes getting wet a little

>>40160666
*headpats*
im sorry anon; but that doesnt mean you cant be happy

if you want to cry stop focusing and caring about frivilous things; fall in love with someone like never before; get your heart broken badly; that will show you what it is to cry

also listen to emotionally intense music; even things that arent sad sounding (lots of upbeat Vocaloid songs used to make me bawl my eyes out)

ive lost alot of my cherished crying ability but i know its mostly from longterm xanax and trauma; im trying to gradually reduce it but i dont think ill ever be off of it completely because my panic disorder is too dangerous

>>40160731
I will never be a woman Like you
I’m so jealous <\3
I hate being faketrans

>>40160154
>>40160154
i think for most people it's just getting watery eyes a lot and some refer to that as crying already. as long as you're not repressing the emotion and just let it flow, i'd let it be what it is :))