Males make me so angry, I hate them more than anything and I want to be a woman so that I don't have to associate with disgusting freaks of nature pretending to be human. There are no good males, because all maleness is a disease and I cannot see myself ever thinking of myself as good no matter what I do. I can't be anything close to a real woman, so I can't be anything close to human. If I can't be a real woman then I will never be a person, and if I can't be a person what's the point in being alive?

All the trans folks I know are either doing it for a disgusting perverted reason or actually think they are women. It upsets me but I don't say anything because they actually almost look like real women and I'm jealous to no end. If people thought I was a real woman maybe they'd think I was a person before they hear me speak and know just how damaged I am.

I've tried forgiving males for being born, I've tried forgiving myself for being born. I punished myself for my maleness by trying to tolerate them enough to go gay, but the only thing I wanted to do was hurt them (and sometimes they told me they enjoyed it which was absolutely disgusting and I hate them hate them hate them). I will never forgive maleness and I will never forgive myself and I will never be happy unless I am a real woman or dead.

No matter what I'll never be a real woman so there's no point in trying to pretend to be one. How do I just accept that I will always be a male?

>>40172368 (OP)
you need to accept that frogposters are cancer first of all, not reading that wall of text until then