How the fuck do I stop doing picrel?

I literally don't do anything, it's like I'm not even alive and I barely put in effort to pass and miss my injections all because of the anguish of not passing with minimal effort?

Like I know in my head that this is fucking insane and life ruining behavior and yet it's like I'm paralyzed and can't do anything

>>40174014 (OP)
Just give up completely on everything forever. Give up now. You'll never pass, you'll never be seen as a woman, it's impossible for you to be happy. You live one single finite life and you'll be male for all of it.

have some structure in your life
i made a book that i had to write in every single day,that helped the most

other than that i got a freind to ask me specific questions(like if i had written in the book,if i had cut,etc,etc)

also go outside,i know it seems like youll never progress because youve tried so many times before and failed every time,,,its not about keeping it up 100% of the time,thats not actually possible and everyone breaks someday

>>40174123
Istg its the same weird doomer guy on each fucking depressed tranny post, i can tell from the flags and the writing. can you fuck off?

>>40174014 (OP)
Having money is good, it allows you more options.
Having a partner is good, it allows you to be sexually satisfied.
Taking care of your body is good, it allows you to feel better and be as good looking as you can be.
So try to do those things. Or don't, no pressure.

>>40174234
>can you fuck off?
No. You're a tranny freak and will never be a cis girl.

>>40174014 (OP)
You're not a woman, no matter how much butchery you get you'll never be happy or confident you stupid faggot.

>>40174014 (OP)
This is a male trait btw

>>40174288
what else is there?

>>40174377
>procrastination is a male trait

>>40174014 (OP)
are u neet nona?
If so maybe try to start an apprenticeship

>>40175045
I lie to myself that I'm taking a gap year but it's because I feel like I'm not even a human anymore

>>40174014 (OP)
You can just do stuff. Idk I never get insecure man/boymoding so just do stuff like that and you can girlmode as and when you're comfortable.
The weight of trying to look a certain way is crushing and sometimes it's easier snd healthier to just turn that off.
>>40174295
No shit I'll never be cis lmao. But I'll be able to look good at least some of the time which is preferable to how I'd look otherwise.
I'll take looking like a nerdy fem thing over looking like a fit normo guy any day. And the best bit is, as you all love to complain, i get to keep 95% of the physical ability which is the one part of being male I actually like.

>>40174014 (OP)
are you getting surgery any time soon?
i got ffs last year and am just now leaving the house
on the one hand its nice to girlmode without being giga dysphoric about my male features
on the other hand im meeting non passing babytrans and idk theyre not as cringe as i thought itd be