Haven’t even had the urge to drink either. Does anybody else have that, where you spend years as an addict, then just get tired of it (being a loser) and just stop? Also probably need to work on my 4chan addiction too…

>>40174369 (OP)
i did that but i was mostly using drugs as a means to repper cope. i do get antsy around the idea of benzos though, but i try to distract myself when that happens though

>>40174369 (OP)
How long did it take for withdrawals to stop and how did you survive first days?
I'm getting tired of opioids too but fuck those withdrawals, they're killing me

>>40174410
For me it was a failed relationship, and starting when I was young/being a loser outcast in school. I’m glad you’re doing better now anon. And yeah stay away from benzos you can’t even come off of those without medical help.
>>40174451
How long have you been doing them? What’s your dose? For me it was honestly 8 days of sheer hell. But I wanted to be free, wanted to choose life. Used a combination of phenibut, alcohol, and magnesium to help me occasionally get some sleep.

>>40174567
>And yeah stay away from benzos you can’t even come off of those without medical help.
yea it was hell, withdrawals for a literal year before i felt normal again

>>40174369 (OP)
stopped my buprenorphine abuse so i can abuse tramadol instead :3

>>40174567
Thankfully for now I've only been doing opioid for pussies so codeine.
I've been extracting it from antidol (old polish way) almost everyday for last 2 years, like 900mg dose currently.
I used to be able to last 2 days before having withdrawal but now it starts the next day

>>40174587
That's actually what scared me with the phenibut. Like yeah, it helped me to actually sleep, but dang the stuff I've heard about those kinds of meds. Honestly even the post withdrawals are making me super depressed and anxious. Oh well, hopefully it'll be over soon. What all were your symptoms?
>>40174644
Yeah I'd quit that were I you, unless you want to go through days of agony. Opioids suck anyway, just make you veg out and constipated.

>>40175293
The problem is I really like that state, this numbness after taking. But for the 90% of those 2 years it's mostly chasing those highs from the beginnings than actually enjoying what is happening right now. And it's ruining me financially so it makes sense to get out asap. It's just not easy to do that.

>>40175443
>I really like that state, this numbness after taking. But for the 90% of those 2 years it's mostly chasing those highs from the beginnings than actually enjoying what is happening right now
That was how it was for me too. Heck still is, as like I said I've gone through a lot of depression since stopping. But you have to stop anon, you need to experience the highs and lows of life in full. Once you stop, you realize how much you've been missing, how "on autopilot" everything has become.

>>40174369 (OP)
i'm happy for u its nice to see someone making it.

>>40174369 (OP)
were you the same anon that had the fulltime job and was concerned about cold turkeying it and getting sick?

>>40175767
I wouldn't say I've full on made it yet. There's still a lot to do, and I have been waking up quite anxious and depressed as the memories of the things I've numbed over the years come rushing back to me. But I'm fine with that. I have healthy ways of working through things now.
>>40175807
Yeah that was me. I took 7 days leave from work. Still get cravings (and temp changes) but other than that it's just a matter of regaining some lost weight I lost over the course of the withdrawals.

>>40176100
awesome :D
i'm very proud of you, anon.
stay away from ALL old bad habits and f(r)iends.
i'm almost 18 years clean. B)
i did blow a perc like 10 years ago, but it was just 1 time and got sick off of it.

>>40174369 (OP)
I had a friend who did this. Then he went back to binging opiates when he could get them. Probably saying "it's fine if it's not heroin".
>>40174567
How much alcohol?

>>40174369 (OP)
Bet you'd love some DELICIOUS HEROIN anon
just a splendid peaceful hit of DELICIOUS HEROIN
why not end the day off with some lovely DELICIOUS HEROIN
I mean go on, treat yourself, you deserve it, a full syringe of DELICIOUS HEROIN
its better than any orgasm, its like being loved, you know what it is, DELICIOUS HEROIN
You're thinking about it right now, aren't you? you'd love it if you had some DELICIOUS HEROIN
can't you feel your body urge for it? DELICIOUS, it would be so good if you could shoot up with some HEROIN right now wouldn't it

>>40174369 (OP)
MDMA, once every three months - to feel complete for just six hours. no re-ups, nothing else.

>>40176404
Usually only a few beers. All I could get down while throwing up a bunch really.
>>40176336
I'll try. I guess I'm "lucky" in the sense that I didn't really have drug using friends enabling me. Only one friend knew I was an addict.
>>40176450
nah I'm done with all drugs. Had to take a nyquil the other night and even that was too much for me