Anonymous
6/26/2025, 5:03:52 AM No.40179100
>Found out I was a tranny at 15
>Was forced to rep by shitty parents for 3 years because I didn't know diy was an option
>Get on hormones 2 weeks after turning 18
>4 months on estrogen now
>No social life, hardly any practical skills, 32 bmi (lol) pre-transition so need to lose weight, voice train, get a job for fashion and makeup before I can even think about existing as a woman in public
>Cannot find the willpower to do anything but gymcope and diet, only doing the former because I like it and the latter because its easy
>Can't find enjoyment in anything due to immense self hatred and executive dysfunction
Genuinely how the fuck do you keep going in this state. I was barely sentient for the entirety of my adolescence and now I finally have just a little glimpse of hope and God being so close feels agonizing. Im not alive, im preparing to be able to live later on, and thats not even guaranteed because idk if ill pass or just be stuck in this limbo forever. The emotional affects of estrogen gave me the ability to process everything thats happened to me a bit and all its done is just make me realize how fucked I am. I'm going to be ten steps behind everyone else forever and at best all I can hope for is to move into a shitty apartment in a place that doesn't hate trannies and hope to god I can find someone compatible with my neuroticism. I just wanna live and be happy and have some opportunities but nothing awaits the poorfag midshit tranny aside from suffering. I don't even get the higher iq and programming autism AGPs are supposed to have.
>Was forced to rep by shitty parents for 3 years because I didn't know diy was an option
>Get on hormones 2 weeks after turning 18
>4 months on estrogen now
>No social life, hardly any practical skills, 32 bmi (lol) pre-transition so need to lose weight, voice train, get a job for fashion and makeup before I can even think about existing as a woman in public
>Cannot find the willpower to do anything but gymcope and diet, only doing the former because I like it and the latter because its easy
>Can't find enjoyment in anything due to immense self hatred and executive dysfunction
Genuinely how the fuck do you keep going in this state. I was barely sentient for the entirety of my adolescence and now I finally have just a little glimpse of hope and God being so close feels agonizing. Im not alive, im preparing to be able to live later on, and thats not even guaranteed because idk if ill pass or just be stuck in this limbo forever. The emotional affects of estrogen gave me the ability to process everything thats happened to me a bit and all its done is just make me realize how fucked I am. I'm going to be ten steps behind everyone else forever and at best all I can hope for is to move into a shitty apartment in a place that doesn't hate trannies and hope to god I can find someone compatible with my neuroticism. I just wanna live and be happy and have some opportunities but nothing awaits the poorfag midshit tranny aside from suffering. I don't even get the higher iq and programming autism AGPs are supposed to have.
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