I shouldve stayed with my ex even if he was mean sometimes and controlling sometimes and often pressured me into sex and didnt acknowledge my injury because he was a good guy and was improving and hes a pure top (bi chad) and looked good without the shitty style he was doing near the end and after losing some weight but god he was like a real normal guy (besides playing a lot of cs and league yaeh he was kind of diamond 4 no big deal and yeah he was one of the top players in a popular card game) so yeah I shouldve stayed a few more years bcuz then I could oneup you other trannies that don't have boyfriends
"LMAO imagine not having a bf" <-- me saying that if we stayed together

now its too late though and he's probably with someone

>>40180445 (OP)
Why are you so desperate to be miserable?

>>40180485
cuz I hate my face

>>40180445 (OP)
No, that guy sounds like he fucking sucks. Olease improve your sense of self worth and/or get therapy

>>40180445 (OP)
how long ago did you break up nona?

>>40180674
No he was a great guy. He's sooo good at fps games its so hot and and he has normal guy zoomer friends who have pepe the frog avatars and vote trump and they drive pickups its so hot and he was like 6'2 and chadded I should kill myself

>>40180445 (OP)
How tall was he? And how did a boymoder get a Chad?

>>40180679
2 years... -sniff-

>>40180695
I was prettier back then

>>40180445 (OP)
>>40180693
>>40180707
who broke up with who? if you broke it off it's 100% your fault lmao get cucked

>>40180445 (OP)
>yaeh he was kind of diamond 4 no big deal and yeah he was one of the top players in a popular card game
stop glazing and move on.

>>40180718
its my fault X_X
>>40180719
ok!? he played in lvl 10 faceit games and killed tyler1. He was top 50 bloodhunt at one point like yeah whatever

>>40180707
grim. try to improve your sense of self worth outside of the relationships you hold nona. keep the definition of your value out of other peoples hands and you can be in relationships as they work for you and mutually, instead of always pining for another.

>>40180719
sorry he actually hit D2 not D4 i really shouldnt have said that because those are completely different ranks. Like d2 is a lot better.

you sound bpd

>>40180747
hi I dont talk to anyone that uses that foul upside of anonymity

>>40180754
Well i cant be if I havent been diagnosed with it right? Im just an angel sent from elsewhere to experience what its like to be a human but like one of the most special ones. My job is report back with all of the data in my head

>>40180445 (OP)
He sounds just like me wtf lmao, I'm not a controlling loser tho, hope u can find someone new to treat you good

>>40180772
hi how are you doing? I hope your day went well. what state are you in

>>40180445 (OP)
You should get back with him, also how'd you meet him?

>>40180759
what?

>>40180771
LMAO you will ruin the lives of everyone you date until you die from an overdose of something one of them got you addicted to

>>40180788
in a small thread on this board 6 years ago

>>40180735
they have faceit for league?

>>40180749
>>40180735
see >>40180719

>>40180794
no faceit for cs he was sooo good and he had awesome skins like Karambit Marble Fade Fire & Ice pattern and Pandora gloves like thats actually insane bro

>>40180793
>boymoding for 6+ years

>>40180798
BUT HE WAS SO FUNNY AND SKILLED like even with my natural talent I couldnt beat him in any competitive video game thats how good he was at games (besides typing i type wayy faster) like he went 52-0 in league one time. Like thats crazy work esp as a jungler. and he was nice and friendly and I was the worst person alive

>>40180808
kill uself

>>40180445 (OP)
are you twinkboobs dogleg?

>>40180759
I'm genuinely curious what you mean by this. If you'd broken up sooner your fresh regret would make more sense, but 2+ years later indicates heavy idealization and low self value. what that other anon said about bpd makes sense in that light.

>>40180781
Not in a state sorry love, I'm a anglo, stop playing league if you do it'll improve your mental health

>>40180808
ikr, only a worthless neet bpdmoder or a true gigahon could pull that off without affording ffs by then

>>40180862
I see… so what if im a friendly lil bpdemon? Ill show you all…
>>40180879
lmao why are you being rude

>>40180759
>work on yourself and form healthy bonds
>"foul upside of anonymity"
what did he (you are boymoding) mean by this?

>>40180866
thanks for saying something nice like that <(-)

>>40180890
>rude
no anon how the fuck have you boymoder for 6 years without improving anything? there's either nothing to improve or you have negative personal agency

>>40180912
politely shut up I used to gotlmode but realized it was shite

>>40180924
>politely shut up
make me faggot

>>40180942
oh my god forget fighting Im sorry I apologize ummm waow he has 3.5k hrs in cs and like if u have 16 people in a room hes gonna be the most lethal person there (in vidya)

reading through 1000 pages of our discord messages <3 <3 <3

I used to be so cute in 2020 I should kill myself

>>40180978
>>40180989
he's probably wifing up a cis girl by now lmao

>>40180735
Like actually I was talking to this npdemon on soc who was ripped and smart, a normal guy, and even he wouldve gotten destroyed by my ex on and also isnt as nice

>>40180445 (OP)
whats your discord? you sound like you’d be the best girlfriend ever desu (I am similar to this guy but without the negatives)

>>40181013
I… you wouldnt like me… i just look like a twink or something

>>40181024
quiet, cutie, I want to make you feel special :)

>>40181033
ummm gimme a sec im scared and inebriated

>>40181039
i’ll be here <3

>>40181048
actually my disc is jamboreen , feel free to add me instead :)

>>40181084
nta but ive been seeing you everywhere today. how many adds do u have??

>>40181048
hi im fucked up but heres an old alt where I can reroute you
milcat00

>>40181092
WTF i didnt know that >>40181084
we’re done

>>40181092
I have so many friends I am powerful and mighty (bored at work and like talking to people)

>>40181106
I was mostly giving tips on voicegen today lol, I do not have a harem of trans women at my beck and call I promise

>>40181106
>>40181112
ToT sorry lol didnt mean to fuck it up for u

>>40181120
LMFAOOOOO you’re good you’re keeping me in check

>>40180445 (OP)
You can do better

>>40181170
I can’t he’s the only one for me. Its like 2025 and im made of crushed stars and Im going to spend the rest of my short life waiting here in this darkness for something thats never going to come. A door locked a door locked a door locked

>>40180445 (OP)
>>40180693
>I wish I stayed with a fascist cult member that votes for my death camps because he was good at video games and 4troons would be impressed I have a bf aka the easiest shit in the world if you shower and put out
Thanks for the random validation because the fact that I will never understand this mindset is proof that I am a real man.

>>40181268
then why did you break up??

>>40181271
no like an actual hot bf
>>40181275
I was super depressed and sort of detranning cuz of pressure and then that made me look worse and i felt so hopeless and i tried to be a normal guy and that meant he had to go : (

>>40181286
the bisexual had to go because he wouldn't date a twink??

>>40181316
no Ihated myself too much to do anything with him cuz thats super gay and I looked fugly so I had to be a normal guy THAT was the issue

>>40181343
you think men are fugly but you date them?

>>40180445 (OP)
do you goon your clitty to bnwo and or sissy hypno?

>>40181557
Yes... Everyday >_<

>>40181355
nice reading comprehension dumbass anyways WELL no I dont think that but its harder to appreciate men for their aesthetic design I think we all relate ummm

>>40181557
kill yourself

>>40180445 (OP)
Are you in New Zealand?

>>40180445 (OP)
He played league, you cannot fix him

>>40181557
it's probably worse like diapers and loli

>>40181725
Diapers isn't worse than that stuff, loli is debatable

lol get rekt bpdemon, he will be happy with someone else

>>40181830
Im not a bpdemon

>>40180445 (OP)
Why'd you break up?

>>40181889
this thread says otherwise

>>40182055
Im not defined by my labels everything I do is for a good reason

>>40182151
you're defined by your actions and your actions are so batshit insane shit even a teenage girl would think it was crazy

>>40180445 (OP)
Just get back together with him retard

>>40182246
literally what did I even do?? You dont know anything

>>40180445 (OP)
>straightly mistreated by chad
many such cases

i dated this person. (i'm not the guy they are talking about, i came afterward) i wanted them to girlmode more and they insisted they were a man. i'm a bi girl so that was fine w me and i treated him like a man and it was nice except for the fact they would go nonverbal any time we went in public. i broke up w them a couple times but i always found myself coming back to them because they have a really beautiful soul and also despite what they say they are one of the most beautiful people i have ever laid eyes on.
last time we started to get back together it was pretty nice we went to the beach and i went to an improv class w them and i had resolved that i was actually just really happy being w them and i didn't give a damn abt their social anxiety at all and i realized i could just take care of em forever and our lives would be better. then like a week or two into this they crash out, and stop talking to me without telling me why. and finally find out it's because they "ONLY LIKE MEN". and they started to just stay inside and do drugs and ignore me and all of our friends until they finally tried to kill themselves.
bpdemon. but i'm also a bpdemon and still obsessed with this person. they still shine for me despite it all.

>>40180445 (OP)
>>40180693
>>40180816
this sounds very weirdly similar to my bf even down to the friends with pepe pfps, and my bf being a former CS semipro. is this a common relationship type or something?

>>40183647
trannies like competitive video games fsr. makes sense they'd end up w/ guys who also like competitive video games. i don't like video games much though, that's how i know i'm faketrans

>>40183647
maybe he double dipped and dated both of you at the same time

>>40180445 (OP)
your ex bf is a loser try dating girls

>>40185680
they did and it went horribly.

>>40185730
picrel
>>40183045
im sorry anon, it is hard dating someone with bpd. i hope you find someone who is attracted to women and is able to utilize your patience with their social anxiety. my most recent ex was very good for this and it made a world of difference for me

>>40186277
nah im detransing lmaooo

>>40186365
to be with op or for another reason

>>40186433
i'd have to be insanely delusional to do that just for op wouldn't i

>>40186465
ive seen it happen, i figured since you have bpd it wouldnt be out of the realm of possibility. i have bpd and i went back to transitioning for a man i was dating.
i hope whatever decision you end up making is the best for you though, i remember detransitioning and it was one of the lowest points in my transition.

>>40186502
i think i need estrogen mentally at least for now. i was never a girl socially and i hate forcing myself into that role.
do i fantasize picking up op in my manual corolla and i have a bouquet of roses? showing them unconditional love and driving into the sunset? yes.
will that happen? probably almost certainly not.
but it helps to keep me from throwing my life away for now.

>>40186605
oh ok. i hope she comes back and im rooting for you anon