does anyone else feel like they've lost all agency in their life?

its just so bleak and miserable. t.26 mtf

>>40193542 (OP)
Omg is that ロヂヤ?? Omggg

>>40193548
well im not exactly about to start using pictures of surge for my vent threads am i, marina

>>40193562
Erm well this is awkward

>>40193542 (OP)
Yes. Unable to stay up for more than six hours straight.

>>40193576
like you just fall asleep?

>>40193562
>>40193570
I need to use the bathroom.

>>40193586
Overwhelming urge to slip back into bed.

>>40193576
I have this but because of depression n sleeping issues.

>>40193605
i just feel like i dont "want" to do anything, like there's just no substance in my life, there's nothing im reaching for, nobody i talk to and nobody who wants to talk to me. its all so empty and hollow and bleak and cold. Everything's just so meaningless I might as well be dead.

>>40193635
But Uma musume and p5x just got their global versions

>>40193683
i care about neither of these things. they interest me in zero regard

>>40193698
But..... They're good...

>>40193542 (OP)
never had it to begin with.

the only agency I have is in my dreams. that's not hyperbole either.

>>40193752
what can we even do?

>>40193764
sleep life away. That's what I do.

>>40193542 (OP)
yeah, i guess i've never felt like i've had it to begin with, but only now at 26 am i really, concretely, knowing it.
idk how to come to terms with this. im ugly, physically and emotionally, and mentally ill
and i don't even have any redeemable factors to overcome this

i was born alone, my life has been alone, and i will almost definitely be dying alone

my only choice is to become absorbed into dumb video games to distract myself from reality, give my life purpose for a moment. but no one (rightfully) cares about my capabilities when it comes to a useless video game

>>40193542 (OP)
Yeah I feel like I'm getting too old and everyone around me is enjoying or progressing through life whilst I sit in my bedroom decaying, I wanna go get drunk and have fun and suck a fucking dick not hide away in my room crying all the time, i don't wanna be a 45 year old hon with no life

>>40193811
i've been feeling that a lot too, it feels like i could close my eyes, and open them again and suddenly im in my thirties with nothing

>>40193819
It's fucking awful, I've been trying to work out and better myself but it feels like nothing changes, like wtf do we do to improve our lives, I don't even wanna reach 27 being lonely nevermind 30 ;-;

>>40193865
Study n work out n talk 2 people