im p much a neet this summer break and days are blending. it feels so odd, i’m usually in a good mood, or at least consistent in how i feel. too much time to think, not enough distractions.
made the appointment today and now i’m just sitting here like “was that real?”
not even sure i’m excited. i don’t feel anything. not really scared, just this weird empty nothing
haven’t felt like i could actually relate to cis guys since middle school. always felt like i was watching them instead of being one of them
a friend has been pinkpilling me and yeah it’s hot and yeah it’s doing something but now i don’t know if i actually want this or if i’m just that desperate to feel something
im extra lonely rn and i can feel my ed getting worse again. i havent eaten in two days and im already in the 16s for bmi which just hurts
i feel like i’m falling into something and i don’t know if it’s real or if i’m just extra broken rn
school starts again in the fall and i have no idea how i’m supposed to handle changes. what if it’s obvious. what if i can’t hide it. what if this ruins everything
no clue what i’m doing. no clue if this is right. just needed to get this out somewhere

>>40202736 (OP)
it's actually insane that you can just ask to pump your body full of wrong sex hormones and they'll do it
fucking insane
trump needs to burn planned parenthood to the ground

Stop typing like you’re 11.

>What if it’s obvious
You taking hormones? It won’t be obvious except you get droopy little cone man boobs after a while, otherwise it does nothing visually

>>40202736 (OP)
>haven’t felt like i could actually relate to cis guys since middle school. always felt like i was watching them instead of being one of them
OP this is called autism

>>40202736 (OP)
in my non-professional opinion you should rule out differential diagnoses before starting this treatment. Before that it can't really be said to be informed consent.

>>40202756
idk pp is pretty nice for those who actually want it. they do labs and everything in one place and they accept alot of insurance.

>>40202817
"wanting it" is not a sufficient reason to give anyone hormones

>>40202838
and I don't need a shrink to verify my existence. everyone here is so anti informed concent but pro diy without acknowledging they are both equally as easy access with added safety of verifying what your getting and having a doctor help monitor you. most of the pp doctors let you pick ur dose as long as ur labs are good and you work up to it. the only real downside is that it's a bit expensive w/o insurance.

>>40202756
i didn’t realize it was this easy either until and irl mentioned the clinic, it’s not even that expensive all things considered
>>40202765
breast growth is v scary when i think abt it, as a small test i keep trying to imagine losing some function of my penis, but i don’t know hm i care about that relatively speaking. its hard to know for sure esp before im on any hormones
>>40202801
i dont have autism as far as i know
>>40202816
i feel like i am running out of time, im young comparatively to maybe most people here, but ive thought about this for a while now and this was the first time ive taken action towards a path like this
>>40202817
my irl recommended an online one, they order labs and prescribe relatively quickly, i just need to do a video call interview thing first which would be next week. from what i saw on goodrx, the pills look cheap but idk abt injections

>>40202905
>equally as easy access with added safety of verifying what your getting and having a doctor help monitor you.
but informed consent doesn't just mean informed about side effects of a particular drug, rather it must encompass being informed about the condition(diagnosis), its prognosis and treatment-prediction etc. as well as alternatives treatments.

>>40202756
The people you would get to do this would do the same to beer or chips or coffee.

>>40202838
i really do believe there is something in me deep down that is motivating me to do this. i wish i could express myself better but idk, it feels stronger than just a “want”
>>40202905
did u do the informed consent route? if you did was your experience good when you first met with the doctor? i’m nervous
>>40202945
i have done a ton of research into the effects of hrt and transitioning, there likely isn’t anything they will say that will shock me, i feel like ive internalized the most important parts already

>>40203035
>i really do believe there is something in me deep down that is motivating me to do this.
we don't give people powerful drugs because they spout some shit like this, this is absolutely nuts

>>40203054
maybe ur right, idk. i miss my old friends, maybe i just to touch grass more

>>40203035
>was your experience good when you first met with the doctor? i’m nervous
I'm very nervous too but everyone there is super nice even to a boymoder so I thought it was really nice. I mostly do online visits now bc I'm past the year mark but it's pretty easy.

>>40203035
it's going to be ok I think
informed consent is really easy, especially if you've already done a ton of research
they'll just get you to do a blood test and sign some papers, then start you on a low dose of pills

>>40202945
>as well as alternatives treatments.
For gender dysphoria? There is none. The only other option is being miserable with the others in /repgen/.

>>40203054
>powerful drugs
you mean literal supplements
that's right, we don't give opiods or amphetamines to people just because they want them. Estrogen is harmless and has no potential for abuse, it's not addictive and doesn't even get you high

>>40203278
that’s comforting thank u. i’m not using pp but id imagine the process is similar. feeling more confident already

>>40203364
thank u, ur echoing the other anon which is comforting. are injections common to start with? also i would imagine they woudnt prescribe something like raloxifine over breast growth concerns right?
>>40203371
im terrified of growing older and thinking about what could have been
>>40203381
yeah i was confused on what they meant by powerful too

>>40203488
>thank u, ur echoing the other anon which is comforting. are injections common to start with? also i would imagine they woudnt prescribe something like raloxifine over breast growth concerns right?
most common to start with is just pills, which is what I got on informed consent. If you really want injections then the best way is diy, but you shouldn't worry about that for now
and raloxifene is definitely not going to happen, informed consent doctors are just general practitioners who will prescribe based on the guidelines. You'd need a real endocrinologist for that