>Rejected by my family,
>I boymode to please them
> I can tell they hate me and that I've lost their respect.
>I feel so ugly because I can't put any effort into my appearance.
>People don't really acknowledge my existence in public.
>Most of my coworkers are distant and cold towards me.
> I have no friends because Ive cut myself off from the world.
>Can't see myself as an actual woman anymore
>Can't see myself as someone that deserves to be cared for
>Too poor to leave anywhere
>Too useless to get hired for anything I actually care about
>Too depressed to get good at my skills anymore

When does the pain ever end

>>40214153 (OP)
personally? I rejected every retard in my life who disrespected me after I came out. it's a nice way to get rid of cultist family members too. I will outlive them out of spite

went to therapy. started HRT. I am a leech to the government. I'm a NEET because I am also too useless to be hired, but that gives me time to write and draw my feelings out.

chesy? yes. retarded? probably.
but it helps.

>>40214153 (OP)
>Rejected by my family,
>I boymode to please them
Rookie mistake. They don't deserve you anymore so cut them out and forget them forever so you can live your real life.

>>40214286
I wish I could be like you but I let everyone make me feel like who I am doesn't matter and that I'm not worth anything. I pretty much let transphobia win and convince me that I can only hate myself for wanting to be a woman. Im still somehow stupid enough to still be on hrt though just not brave enough to date call myself a woman

>>40214320
I still care about these people even though they've already forgotten about me trying to come out to them. Im a loser with no where else to go

>>40214348
I appreciate it
but grow them girlballs. you don't need these losers.

I remember times where I felt and thought like you. now I hand my girlfriend an airhorn and she fires it every time somebody misgenders me on purpose

so pick yourself up. stop feeling guilty for people who literally don't respect you and start standing in for yourself. stand your ground or flip them off and turn around.

before you treat yourself like shit, ask yourself whether this is how you'd treat a friend. no? then don't do that with yourself either.

if you don't have friends. make some. social media's a hellscape atm but there's communities out there. and always remember that spicy friends are made in psych. maybe those mfs can help you

>>40214376
>I still care about these people
Well stop it lol