i forgot what its like to be a man and now they confuse me sometimes and i think i like them

>take female hormones even though im an iwnbaw trapmaxxer dysphoriachad
>female hormones turn me into a woman

>>40214611 (OP)
ive been trans as far back as i remember so i dont think theres a time i didnt think i was a woman so i kinda dont even know what being a guy is like

>>40214824
i wanted to be a girl my entire life but that isnt the same as being a woman in fact this is a thought only men can ever have

>>40214837
but i mostly socialized with women instead of men meaning im kinda stupid at understanding guys. i only got on hrt at 16 tho but i am mostly passoid

>>40214876
>only 16
im going to blow my head off and tell everyone its your fault

>>40214955
im kangel! i think you shouldnt do that

>>40214955

>>40215032
n-nigga biden!

>>40214990
maybe if you were p chan she would have listenedmm

>>40214876
fag socialization is real

>>40215098

>>40214611 (OP)
Same, like, when the pandemic started I was fifteen and already gay and then it ended and I was already transitioned. I got to know what it was like being a boy you could say but never had the ''man experience''. Like, if I were in a group of only men I would somewhat know how to talk to them but not any other social ritual beyond that.

>>40215115
fag socialization is maybe half of passing

>>40215131
> when the pandemic started I was fifteen

I'm old now. I really am. I forget that a lot. FUCK I'M SO OLD!

>>40215150
Yes, when you are not used to talking to women and you transition is when you actually look like a rapehon, not when you are ugly.

You could say ''well I had female friends!'', which is a common thing but it's not the same when they know/think you are straight, gays are let in into more social rituals.

>>40215160
i feel my bones scraping together
>>40215172
>when you are not used to talking to women and you transition is when you actually look like a rapehon
i don't even know how to fix this because in order to fix it i have to go out and socialize like this

>>40215190
Bad luck kid should have thought about that when you were twelve

>>40214611 (OP)
for me it went
> I'm a child idk I'm just chilling, watching barbie movies AND building stuff with my granddad
> I'm a faggy bishit puberty boy - well time to get into drugs, dissociate and have a 'lil fun. I'm gonna stay androgenous forever and the dysphoria isn't gonna get too bad, right?
> A literal decade of dissociation, addiction and testosterone later: Oh fuck I'm a man what have I done!
> Troon ASAP.

>>40215206
well i didn't, and now i have decades of life left to live as a disgusting rape creature who probably makes everyone uncomfortable.

>>40215234
chill out if you're androphilic you just have to leave the house and will flock with the women naturally
Literally every environment I enter, I'm with all the other women within a few hours even before transition just because of my interests

>>40215274
well im autistic and have malebrained interests so :((
i don't know how to make friends because i can't tell when people would be okay with me talking to them more

>>40215234
also I probably shouldn't say this, but after I publicly announce to a group of women that I find a guy really hot, i feel like they include me more.
> I swear I'm not doing it for that purpose I just can't shut up about other people's appearance and whether I find them hot or not.

>>40215299
your default assumption should be that they want you to keep talking. women LOVE yapping, sometimes I just spend the whole day at work yapping away with my female colleagues and we don't get any work done but nobody cares (even my boss does it lol)
> t. hilariously extroverted fembrained autism tranny

>>40215311
Totally. Just like men, women like talking about who is hot though it happens less often I guess unless I have only talked to really horny guys. Otherwise it happens just as often.

Personally I've talked to other girls about how I like watching gay sex and normies have been weirded out while non normies have frequently agreed with me. It's weird, like, I am so touch starved I don't even want to fuck a man anymore I'd rather watch him have gay sex.

>>40215346
yeah well it's obviously a different way of talking about the attraction. with men it's more like
> i wanna stick my penis into her because she has big boobs
whereas with women it's a bit more flowery and subtly like
> damn that guy works out, I bet he's got crazy stamina
but the little break and side-eye contact afterwards tells you everyone got what you just said

>>40215379
Might be because I am a zoomer but with my friends compliments are more like:
>Omg he seems to not be an incel!!
>I am pretty sure he's not right wing...
>I would totally bear his children

Bar might just be really low in my town idk

>>40215333
im actually pretty good at making work friends i just assume they want nothing to do with me outside of work. idk i get told im annoying a lot, and im very boring and uncultured, so i imagine whenever i talk to someone it's either dull or uncomfortable (im awkward) from their perspective and they only pretend to like me to be nice. idk i need therapy and to make a lot of life changes

>>40215398
okay yeah I don't talk like that with my female friends (all mostly zillennials leaning millenial like me)...
because I'm German I also can't translate the slang / nuances really well

>>40215414
sounds to me like they don't hate you. did you know btw that when allistics bring up that they're doing something together / in their freetime, they're actually probably inviting you?
in the rarest of cases they'll actually go
> hey nona, wanna come too?

>>40215449
i was taught my whole life that inviting myself to stuff is rude :(( i guess i have missed a lot of opportunities.

>>40215490
> bad parents doing bad parenting
many such cases!
although idk you're probably american and y'all got some weird platonic friendliness going on that I, as a European, simply cannot understand.
At least here I know that when people are nice to me, they most likely like me and or not just pretending to.

>>40215526
>At least here I know that when people are nice to me, they most likely like me and or not just pretending to.

That's a German thing 100%. I am Latin American and here people will totally be nice to you upfront and never tell you they hate your guts!