Ugh
venting rn idk
I feel bad right now
Because I'm fucked in the head and want to jerk off to the idea of like, idfk, wearing diapers and sissy clothes for a weekend or something
But the fact that I want to do that (I don't, I just jerk off to the idea of it) makes me feel like I'm not really trans
but outside of fetish shit, i find myself constantly wanting to be treated like a woman, or rather, idk, it's so dumb and probably misogynistic and retarded but I want to be taken care of, i want to be maybe seen as less capable and needing protection and help and love, i want to be cute and dotted on, and idek,
idek what im trying to say or why im posting
im just idk
retarded and confused 24 year old man
also im 5 years hrt but still boymode but i like how hrt has changed my body but i'm probably agp since i also like TF/TG porn and i get off to the idea that my body has feminized goddamn im so fucked in the head
why cant i be a normal guy who just jerks off to big bobbies and lifts weights and is happy

>>40221350 (OP)
Why don't you have a husband yet? Are you actively searching?

Agp is an innate sexuality. Dont beat urself up for being born that way

>>40221370
because im probably autistic idk
ive never dated before
big chunk of college was during covid + I kept doing online classes
in high school i focused on studies, vidya, browsing the 'net
and now i still live with my mom and i just kind of
work
go home
work
go home
weekend
and freetime i spend jacking off, being sad, vidya, browsing the web

never really had a desire to date, men or women, my sexuality is mostly focused on a weird mix of agp/diapers/sissy stuff/tf/piss

>>40221382
:( i wish i was normal

yeah ur like agp and shit but like so what. just like totally troonout all the way and stop worrying. personally i like having control of my own life, you know fuck some fugly man but thats your choice

>>40221471
im too scared to take control of my life
too autistic and scared of change
+ live in a very conservative state and idk
dont want to be trans here.
idk.
idk...

>>40221413
You still live with your mom, is it in a house? An older house? Does your house have lead paint in it?

That might explain a lot of your symptoms

>>40221559
kek

>>40221350 (OP)
>i be a normal guy who just jerks off to big bobbies and lifts weights and is happy

Thas easy.. Someone put that in your head as a plasable escape to reality. and you formulated it to something that would suit your needs that you feel wouldnt make you look stupid. Then throw a bunch of People whom suffer from Dunning Kruger effect mixed in with mytrisum and poof! we get your train of thought.

>>40221603
huhh