how do i become aspd? i felt kind of aspd once. how do i harness that. it was nice because all my guilty feelings went away and i was good at conversation.

my cum seems to turn girls aspd because every time a girl tastes it they ghost me the following morning

>>40232232 (OP)

Not what aspd is and you can't. It's a neurodivergent disorder either you grew into the wiring or you didn't.

>>40232254
it boosts their intelligence

>>40232269
I am a pretty smart guy so I guess it makes sense sperm carrying my genetics would make them smarter
thats how that works right

>>40232265
It has environmental causes that contribute. I'm 21 and a late bloomer so I probably still have time left to develop it.

ASPD nigga here. Existence is boring. You do NOT want this condition.

>>40232307
My existence already is boring and I know having a disorder won't help it and it's not possible to just gain it. I want a way out. I couldn't even tell how bad I was feeling until I wrote this, but apparently I'm feeling pretty shitty.

I'd rather experience no emotion than missing emotions.

>>40232232 (OP)
Im only bpd. But when im splitting i can say and do some really mean stuff guilt free. I can only describe the experience of being "guilt free" as incredibly hollow and basically soulless. When i snap out of it the guilt comes back and its awful of course.
It makes me feel really bad for actual aspds who maybe feel that all the time.
If i could id heal all aspds.

Humans are defined by companship and compassion / tribalism towards one another. To be missing a vital competent like compassion and guilt makes you basically less than human which is a dreadful thing to say but its hard to sugarcoat something so awful.

The good news is that its not always biological, and rather its often due to trauma. Meaning somewhere inside the average aspd there is a very beautiful and maybe even kind soul!

Tfw no aspd transbian gf who lashes me weekly (the beatings are atonement for my behavior, and being with me opens up their heart more somehow win win)

>>40234552
I've felt both vengeful + guilt free (high emotion resulting in suppression of empathy) as well as just like doing mean shit for the hell of it. They're quite different experiences.
ps i'd beat you weekly, it would be a good release for my violent tendencies that are usually repressed

>>40232344
Suffer with me.

>>40235025
>ps i'd beat you weekly, it would be a good release for my violent tendencies that are usually repressed

Only if you were a transbian.

>>40235104
i am!
>>40235058
only if you were a woman

>>40232232 (OP)
you don't want this shit I wish I could feel literally anything for anyone around me even around others like me I feel so intensely lonely. And bored. The boredom never really stops and I think it's given me agoraphobia to the extreme. I'm a neet right now who's done nothing but rot in someone's apartment for months while helplessly trying to get a work from home job. It is not a pleasant experience, it does not get better, and I will likely take my own life at some point.

>>40235367
>i am

Zamn... kinda hot.. wanna add me on disc? Aha jk.... unless?

>>40235801
yes :3 can you drop urs?

>>40235942
Sureio

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