Thread 40249600

i will never be a mother. i will never have a child i can bring to the park and laugh with and push on the swings. i will never be able to cook dinner for them and eat it with them while they tell me about their day. i will never tuck them into bed and reassure them that the nightlight does keep the monsters away. or kiss them on the forehead and read them their favorite bedtime story while their eyelids gradually grow heavy and they drift off into sleep. i will never be able to look one last time into their bedroom at their cute sleeping face knowing they are safe and happy as i slowly close the door

and i will never then walk into my own bedroom and have VIOLENT and AGGRESSIVE sex with my husband. never desperately try to keep my mouth closed as he holds me down and repeatedly pounds into me, his hips crashing into mine. and i beg and plead with him that one kid is already enough and we dont need more but he shuts me up and kisses me and puts another baby in me anyway. ill never be wrapped in his arms and drowsily look into his eyes, deciding that i love him and will give him as many children as he wants

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASLKFNAEFEOGREIOGREGIOERJGERAPIOFWAFIPEWF why does everyone deserve to be happy except me :c

The faggots curse

>>40249600 (OP)
>watches a hallmark movie about raising kids and thinks it will be more loving hugs and backward glances instead of "Jeremy! If you don't get to bed in the next 10 seconds, so help me God!"

>>40249665
im not retarded i grew up with 8 siblings. its an impossible fantasy anyway idc if im focusing on the happy parts

>>40249600 (OP)
That's the biggest downside of trans women imo,

>>40249600 (OP)
ok look i do feel bad that you can’t have this but i also feel bad about not being able to have this and you didn’t need to remind me to feel bad about it today. it’s honestly brutal to think about. one of the things constantly on the back of my mind in my relationship is if he’ll one day realize he actually wants bio kids

the truth is i will never be. anything

>>40249880
ywnba
and yet,
ywabe

>>40249600 (OP)
this is really sweet :( and also obviously the second part is hot. I’m sure you’ll be a good wife to someone.

>t. chaser

>>40249814
im sorry i just wanted to vent :c i hope he decides that even if he does want kids hell do surrogacy or something and not leave u (even if it wont be the same)...
>>40249963
ty but even if that somehow did happen i would never be enough. i was built to suffer

>>40250067
you’d be enough to me, i’m being so genuine

>>40249600 (OP)
same

>>40249814
same. ive been with my bf for years i shouldn't still fear it, but if he does eventually decide having bio kids is important he will probably leave.. im just holding out on the hopes trannies will still be able to adopt in 10 years and that my bf stays okay with that

>>40250067
no i’m sorry you’re totally allowed to vent. it’s nice to know i’m not being unreasonable about how i feel about this
>>40250205
yeah it sucks too since i feel bad about not fully trusting him. here’s hoping

>>40250261
i feel bad about not fully trusting my bf too.. i also have a brainworm about it because he's an only child so i am actually killing a bloodline. he says he doesn't care and his parents don't seem to either though

>>40249814
The saddest part of this image is that the author doesn't look like that and if they did they wouldn't be making images like this

>>40250180
thats sweet but people who agree with you on that are like 0.001% of the population so idk :/ ty anyway
>>40250261
>>40250347
well i hope if nothing else you guys keep your boyfriends for a long time. having one is better than nothing even if you have to deal with that fear (the bloodline thing is especially grim that would be eating away at my insides constantly if it was my bf)

>>40250468
maybe people like me are rare but we still exist! are you american?

>>40250544
further question, east or west coast? maybe I could take you to a national park and have a picnic one day :)

>>40250597
neither, but much closer to west than east

>>40250644
oops forgot to change the name lol

>>40250468
>that would be eating away at my insides constantly if it was my bf
we've been together 7 years now so im not that worried about it. it was on my mind a lot earlier in our relationship but i dont think about it too often anymore. ultimately brainworms aside i trust him

>>40250759
7 years you say... sounds familiar...
either way im happy for you and im glad you have such a strong relationship. i do hope the iwnbam thing goes away as i get older and happier but idk. only time will tell

>>40250943
>sounds familiar...
fear

and ty ty
it will probably get better with time. it has for me. not go away necessarily