...sometimes, albeit rarely, i feel very happy and fröhlich... but during those times i also tend to feel an accompanying emotion of guilt... i feel bad for being happy.. i feel naive and privileged.... its hard to be happy when people around the world are suffering.

The chances of being born in a western 1st world country are low, and the chances of living in one of the best countries is even lower. No matter how I look at it I won the lottery.
Other people can be happy or even rationalize it. But i find it hard to stomach how unfair the world is...

At least im working minimum wage. I feel like if i was a high earner id also be like losing a part of my humanity.
Because at a certain point, ridiculous luck basically seperates you from the normal human condition. Too much luck can dehumanize a person I think.
I dont know anymore..
I feel monastey monks have got it right.

Or maybe political activists.

I understand the push for communism when its from an inherent inequality built into the fabric of reality.
But i disapprove of communism derived from envy and hunger for power.

The goal should be for everyone to be as happy as possible.
But in the current prison dimension, we have a pyramid of torture where those at the bottom suffer so those at the top can prosper. That cant be right....

>>40253562 (OP)
And I thought I was crazy

>>40253562 (OP)
Morpheus: "She's beginning to be based"

When you can feel true happiness it is easy to share it with others, many will reject the gift but most receptive people will gather around to feel the warmth of your soul.

You were born there for a reason and shouldn't feel guilty, what you can do is listen to the calling and provide the endless love only you can give to the world.

hi I feel the very same. but sometimes I remember I couldve been a hot 16 year old white girl with a dad who’s built and has salt and pepper hair and I feel bad

>>40253562 (OP)
I just saw a spider in my bathtub. Harmless, scared, it behaved like a puppy, unable to climb the tub’s slick walls. I helped it get out… and then I decided to do something really bad and put it in the toilet. I thought, “isn’t that cruel” as it tried to stay afloat. Isnt that cruel as I flushed the toilet. I stared at a wall, my eyes dark

>>40253762
Tfw no middle aged detective step dad with a 5 day scruffy beard and a tight white shirt and tie that both smell o alcohol and smoke

Tfw he isnt a stand up guy who has lots of life advice to give me

Tfw he doesnt molest me when he is drunk even tho i spent all day working and then doing chores

Tfw he isnt away most nights because the case he has is so hard to crack


Tfw chasers are all weak men who are not step dad material.

>>40253786
What is wrong with you...