I've been drinking too much of the terf koolaid and have convinced myself I'm not really a woman and I can't be the same as a cis woman biologically. I'll always be bigger, I'll always be stronger, I'll always have male socialization.

I can hate myself so much for being a tranny but I have no hate at all for being brown. That's just my skin and face features it's just whatever

>>40256307 (OP)
you're black you have the transphovia gene

>>40256307 (OP)
being brown is something you passively are, nothing needs to be done to stay brown. but being a tranny is something you actively are, with current medical technology you ALWAYS needs to do something to “remain” trans, it’s an active choice and so you feel more responsible about being it, even though if you stopped you’d want to kill yourself

>>40256333
Yet there are people that are able to make peace with this all. Being a tranny feels like a badge of shame to me yet some people manage to actually become happy while existing as trans

>>40256307 (OP)
im brown too and it feels like im stuck in this dichotomy of being treated as looking incredibly feminine/malefailing sometimes too but to comprehend me as non-cis het seriously is a like a step thats never breached, idk how to describe it but my point is that yeah i agree, much easier to be brown than it is to be a tranny. esp with how brownoids are characterised as being savage uncivilised brutes it makes it much harder to 'feel' any joy for being feminine i guess