>>40266426 (OP)0 my arms especially my wrists cannot support even just my upper body weight; due to self harming permanent joint damage; because of this i have to get up from laying down in bed using my elbows; which are also both bady damage and make painful snapping sounds frequently even from careful movements
because of these issues im pretty helpless i cant open a water bottle; cut a steak or any other full piece of meat; do dishes or other chores; and many other simple nonstrenuous things; a mildly stiff door handle is near impossible for me; snd i can only barely handle pouring a milk carton for cereal or so
its prety pathetic how helpless i am
its funny because when i used to imagine my post transition life; i daydreamed of being a sickly girl living in a canopy bed; being with my beloved and making music on my devices and playing some games
i never actually wanted to be disabled and crippled but thats exactly what happened to me; basically to the letter; and i imagined my future like that long long before i ever started getting sick in 2014; before then i was basically perfect health; never overweight or anything; i just didnt get much exercise
anyways that and various other predictions ive gotten right in my life make me feel even more like a Prophetess )*