I think my earliest experiences with gender validation were men who told me I was beautiful and desirable on 4chan when I was crossdressing and that's why I just keep coming back here wishing for men to pay attention to me and validate me with their gaze. It's like my gender somehow became something that men did to me instead of something that is internal to me. No amounts of passing, friends who support me, internal acceptance, seem to fix my original sin of tying my identity to the desires of men.

nah bih
tie it to your own desires
pull a buffalo bill
look in the mirror
look into your eyes and say
i'd fuck me
i'd fuck me hard

>>40269774
why would you ever trust your own judgement

>>40269587 (OP)
good girl

>>40269774
I'm trying I really am. But whenever someone makes me feel like I'm not good enough I just start to spiral and end up back here
>>40269792
I'm pretty sure being dependent, vain, and unstable is the opposite of being a good girl