pooner art makes me dysphoric
t. MTF
not that intensely. i'm still very much a woman and love estrogen.
i know whatever i feel about this is nothing like what trans men go through.
but also shit you guys are right why do i have fat on my chest that can leak fluid when exposed to certain hormones?
why do i have much more fat storage in my ass, and then worse collagen structures in the fat, so i get cellulite?
why do i have a fat pouch on my belly now? why does E give you so much more fat everywhere? (i fatmaxxed on purpose for feminization and it worked- but that's the point like why does fat = feminine!?)
why did i feel like my posture changed on E?
why am i so much weaker? i am no longer able to run half the speed i used to. and i am almost completely unable to jump high at all when i previously had a pretty decent jump height (though that might be the weight.) I actually genuinely don't like this part at all. No gender euphoria from here.
this isn't some boomer sissy MEF thing it's not hot to me- it feels normal and good to look like a woman and even have these traits. I am happier like this. But ... why??? This is weird!! If I think about it too long it weirds me out?
Also no, I'm not enby either. I want a 100% female sexed body, and i wish i could be a woman as a social role. (And i think the concept of nonbinary-women and nonbinary-men is dumb and actually just repression)
Anyways not trying to say I fully understand everything but I kind of get it on an existential level.
not that intensely. i'm still very much a woman and love estrogen.
i know whatever i feel about this is nothing like what trans men go through.
but also shit you guys are right why do i have fat on my chest that can leak fluid when exposed to certain hormones?
why do i have much more fat storage in my ass, and then worse collagen structures in the fat, so i get cellulite?
why do i have a fat pouch on my belly now? why does E give you so much more fat everywhere? (i fatmaxxed on purpose for feminization and it worked- but that's the point like why does fat = feminine!?)
why did i feel like my posture changed on E?
why am i so much weaker? i am no longer able to run half the speed i used to. and i am almost completely unable to jump high at all when i previously had a pretty decent jump height (though that might be the weight.) I actually genuinely don't like this part at all. No gender euphoria from here.
this isn't some boomer sissy MEF thing it's not hot to me- it feels normal and good to look like a woman and even have these traits. I am happier like this. But ... why??? This is weird!! If I think about it too long it weirds me out?
Also no, I'm not enby either. I want a 100% female sexed body, and i wish i could be a woman as a social role. (And i think the concept of nonbinary-women and nonbinary-men is dumb and actually just repression)
Anyways not trying to say I fully understand everything but I kind of get it on an existential level.
