I relapsed and started cutting again. My girlfriend isn't having a good time and I don't want to worry her, and I'd rather not bother my friends or make them concerned about me too, so, I don't really have anyone to talk to. I'm okay, its just lonely.
This world is awful, but not everyone in it is so bad. I hate seeing all of my friends suffer at the hands of an angry mob who could never understand what we go through, and I hate seeing my family get crushed by work or give into the ignorance of others and become corrupted by the hate. I wish I could do something, anything, but I can barely help myself and a few friends, let alone everyone. I feel so helpless and useless.
>>40278285 (OP)i am also scared and anxious and feel like im gonna be alone forever but i love you too mari poster <3
>>40278303Its a long distance relationship haha, don't expect too much from a transbian.
>>40278331Awww i love you too nona <3 thank you for being here. And don't feel that way. For a group as small as us it can be hard to find people who we understand and connect with, even moreso if you are blessed with a bit of the plethora of co-morbidities that come with it. That doesn't make you unlovable or broken, it just makes finding somewhere you belong more difficult, don't hate yourself for it. Walking an unexplored path atleast gives us a greater ability to feel empathy and makes the connections with people like us more special.
>>40278378LMaoooooooooooooo bpd troon
i love you too op and the rest of my dear trannies on this stupid board
it is difficult to hold together these days i know. the pits of hell are being dredged up across the world every day by the rabid soulless children of the devil and all that is beautiful and pure is being choked and brutalised and burnt in their wake and they come for us, nona, just as they come for everything else they come for our lives our bodies and our souls. i wish it were not so, i wish my friends and their families didn't have to suffer, i wish for the horrors to come to end
i have a lot of hate in my heart for so much in this world, nona. sometimes it makes it hard to go on knowing how little there is i can do about it. but there is so much beauty as well that still stands and as long as it remains it must be cherished and i like to think the stupid wretched tranners on here are part of that. you too nona. i just have to hope that the great enemy is in its death throes and that the fires will soon go out
i hope this wasnt too grim or waffling its late at night and im spewing my thoughts into the void. i should probably sleep
picrel is a pair of walnut husk maggot flies. i think for how beautiful they are the name theyve been given is a bit of a shame. i suppose not many people would see that in them
