i am a body luckshit. i am very thankful... i am not complaining about this.
but someone (online friend) asked me what i looked like... and i just realized that all of my pics are revealing/sexual of my body.
i don't have any where i'm smiling. barely anything with my face at all, every picture i have in my "sendable" selfie folder has my face is cropped out or covered in black.

i only ever take pictures of myself for sexual attention from others.

the only time i ever get to be seen as a woman is when some random man (or woman) i've never met is telling me they can get off to my pics.
that's all i get. that's my womanhood.
this is the same shit i got when i was larping on omegle as a 13yo... sexual attention online. and then nothing. no actual love. no being seen as myself day to day.

i am always told by these people that i'm lying that i don't pass, that it's just worms. or i just need to dress to reveal more.
but every day i go out in girlmode, and every day i am either not gendered at all or gendered male. even in tight clothes.

but nope all i get is "i would rape you," "sit on my face," "now can you send me a pic of your feet in socks?" And i do send those sock pics.. i do play the game and tell them what they want to hear. act flustered and bottombrained. and then i send more pics from my folder pretending they are recent and taken for them.
I don't get off to it at all. i don't really feel anything when playing the game.

I just like people telling me I'm pretty and they would protect me and make me theirs and cuddle me and love me and want me and NEED me and how i'm so DESIRABLE and tell me how i'm a beautiful Woman and gender me correctly... i get to be so pretty in that moment.
and then they finish and i'm an ugly man again.
and then i screenshot everything nice they said to me to keep in another folder.
and we never talk again. and i'm on to the next person.

i wish it were socially acceptable to wear full face coverings.

>>40278344 (OP)
Incoherent cuntbabble.

Didn't read.

Herbs.

>>40278377
i am high sry is it that bad

>>40278394
i wish u could delete posts after the time

>>40278922
ur fine qt
it's cute you have a folder of nice things people say to you
crossed my fingers you get a bf soon glgl

>>40278344 (OP)
i was in this trap for a long time. it truly becomes an addiction. i started at 14, and went until i was 18. i've done it two or three other times since then, when i was feeling low. when you feel so disgusting and then someone tells you you're beautiful it just sinks its claws into you. it's a terrible habit, i hope you can escape it. it's possible to get by without it.

>>40278344 (OP)
yeah i used to do that too. i'm so glad i don't have nudes of my self on my phone anymore. i know it's hard but you need to find self respect

>>40278344 (OP)
if picrel is real, I NEED THAT.

>>40278344 (OP)
I did the same but now having a bf so I send nudes to him only.

>>40278344 (OP)
post face then