>>40292668 (OP)>I don't care how bitter this soundsWhether or not it's bitter isn't why you should care, it's that so long as you act on those feelings they will remain. It feels worse to simply do nothing but accept your sadness and anger in the moment, yet it's the only way to get rid of those feelings for good. You'll be miserable until you realize the only way out of your feelings is through. It's not through becoming a cis women either, you'll just find something else to agonize over when you get comfortable, the same way there are people with everything you want who agonize over shit you think don't matters. And there are people in russia who think your problems don't matter. The grass isn't actually greener on the other side. For the most part, the grass is as green as you make it.
Now what will you do? Mature or continue the tantrum.