Tried to see if meeting a girl and detransitioning to completely repress my feelings would go away, but it ended up just causing my GD feelings to come back after being off the hormones a month or two into the relationship. I felt it was right to end it and basically start at square one again.

I just am truly lost now because I genuinely thought that finding a girlfriend would make these problems go away :/ -

>>40306091 (OP)
Is that actually you or did you do a faceapp on one of your pics and this thread is a prank?

>>40306102
No, that’s really me :/
I completely dropped the medicine, threw everything away because i genuinely though that these feelings of wanting to be a guy would stay while I was with this girl, but it faded after a while and now I just don’t know what to do anymore

Bump

if people are born gay then that means it's genocide time

>>40306091 (OP)
Have you tried a boyfriend instead?

>>40306091 (OP)
>those repper eyes
you're trans, best to get over it as soon as possible. honestly even without hrt if you grew out your hair, shaved, got a decent skincare routine you'd look super pretty i think. but you should take hrt anyway

>>40306159
You used to post your pics here before you detransed, right? I forget if you used a name while posting.

>>40306901
I think he's a detransitioner who was on hrt before

>>40306091 (OP)
i thought you were attracted to guys bro

>>40306091 (OP)
well no shit

>>40306901
she used to post here. she looked super pretty with long hair and all that. sometimes wore a kinda dumb hat but she looked good

>>40306883
After being intimate with this girl while trying to be a guy and still having thoughts of wanting to be handled by a man.. I think it’s time I consider it and find someone.

>>40306901
I was on E for 3.6 years but stopped close to 2 months ago when I met this girl but now that’s it over, I’m not sure if I want to go back on it or if should try to stay detransed and look for other options as staying a guy.

>>40306926
My name used to be kindle

>>40306938
Right :/

>>40307103
>I was on E for 3.6 years but stopped close to 2 months ago when I met this girl

damn pussy really will make men do anything

>>40307117
Well not exactly. I already had thought of detransing 6-7 months prior to meeting her so after we started talking, I just took the leap and tried to see where it would take me.

We lost a gold star today... what a fucking waste.

>>40306091 (OP)
Damn you used to look so pretty! I still have some nudes saved, but holy retard 3.6 years and threw it all away lmao

>>40306901
But is it possible to recover from close to 2 months maybe 3 off E if I were to get back on?

>>40306091 (OP)
i remember your posts. brutal that you cut off all your hair, it's gonna take some time to grow back

please dont make attention whore threads every day and samefag at yourself for hours again, if you’re gonna be back on the board

>>40307290
I’m stating that I’m defeated. I’m literally confessing that I tried bettering my life with a woman in hopes it would remove my feelings and it didn’t work. I’m trying to understand how I can move forward now, knowing these feelings truly can’t be removed through the intimacy of a woman.. I’m also trying to genuinely understand if going back on E is even a realistic possibility while being off of it for 2-3 months and still resuming where I left off after a week or two on E.

>>40306091 (OP)
at the very least get on finasteride or dutasteride to zero out your DHT so you won't bald while you figure things out

>>40306091 (OP)
Yeah only works for the pure of heart. Sorry

>>40307252
absolutely

>>40307471
So you’re saying my Browbone or anything detrimental wouldn’t have occurred yet?

It’s something to maybe think about, but I also have to remember that I’m unfortunately tall and my girlfriend made comments like “when you sit down, you look like a guy because of your torso” so I mean.. I might have a cute face but my body is just not equipped for a lifestyle like this I don’t think :/

>>40307158
Who is it? I dont recognize them anymore

>>40307553
i doubt much has changed in 2 months. think of how long it took changes to happen on E

>>40307581
This is that redhead kindle

>>40307589
It’s a comforting thought but at the end of the day, I just had a cute face and I think that was just sort of it realistically speaking

>>40306091 (OP)
This is why I don't like trannies.
They are MEN waiting the moment estrogen is left to emerge.

>>40308164
Waiting the moment estrogen is left to emerge? Okay I’m srry but this doesn’t make any sense. If you think estrogen is just something that floats around in your mind and surfaces randomly in the form of a thought? That doesn’t make sense

>>40307329
>I’m also trying to genuinely understand if going back on E is even a realistic possibility while being off of it for 2-3 months and still resuming where I left off after a week or two on E.
euhh you might have to start on a lower dose at first but why couldn't you restart?

>>40308164
be gone tourist, you're not even making any sense with your ESL rambling

>>40308279
>>40308492
they're saying underneath all of the cosplay, medicine and acting, that is still a afab/amab pretending to be another gender.

>>40308590
I would argue that’s your interpretation. The sentence alone is either not setup correctly or this person just doesn’t have a good understanding of how hormones work. So trying to make sense of something that doesn’t make sense is silly

>>40308629
Its not my fault I don't study trannies mental illness daily.
>So trying to make sense of something that doesn’t make sense is silly
you're right trying to make sense of trannies being retards is silly. anon is right by the way.

>>40307581
This was her or him now

>>40306102
find trust in your heart, anon

>>40308701
Not all trannies are mentally ill. Just most

>>40308974
You are correct. The ones who think trans women are women and trans men are the mentally ill ones. Trans men are trans men and trans women are trans women. Men are men and women are women.

>>40306091 (OP)
Being in a straight relationship and being intimate with a woman is THE prima facie male role. If your body innately rejects playing that part you are either gay or trans.
I feel like if you were gay, you would already have know by now that you have been always attracted to men and not women.
So I don’t know why you are running away from clear evidence of being trans. You have the clearest signal in the world that you don’t want to be male. Your body is innately giving you a visceral signal of gender dysphoria. This isn’t “oh do I have depression or gd” “I don’t like my body, am I trans”. This is 100% the clearest signal of GD a person can possibly have.

>>40309209
I guess it just is a little complicated because of my living situation and my family that I care deeply about

don't understand why you are ruining your only body for this cis girl shit

>>40306159
damn. I remember talking to you in January, you posted in /fa/.
>finding a girlfriend would make these problems go away :/
nope. I dated for 3 years and it did not help. Especially if she expects you to be the man in relationship. It just made me more dysphoric, tho I loved her.

>>40309596
I never had the opportunity to find a connection with a girl because of how picky I am so when she came along, I wanted to give it a try and also see this as an opportunity to lose my virginity with someone special. I went into this relationship hoping that I’d be able to bury these feelings forever but it turned out i was wrong :/

>>40309642
I guess maybe it’s a good thing I’m finding out sooner than later from what I’m gathering. God I’m just so scared to get back on E though ugh

Don’t bump

>>40306091 (OP)
Now do it again in like half a year.
I know a retard who did it 6+ times over the course of 2-3 years, she went from being an actual youngshit passoid (started hormones before T touched her) to being a hon, all because she couldn't understand that her dysphoria wasn't actually gone, but suppressed by HRT, instead she thought she didn't need HRT anymore. And did it again and again and again. I gave up on that retard.
There's another flavour of this retardation, like when you forget what unmedicated dysphoria felt like and start deluding yourself into thinking that you could be a normal man, so you stop hrt. The only difference is that cycles are slower since it takes a while to start forgetting.

>>40308789
She doesn't look that different just shorter hair etc. He should go back if the trans thoughts don't go away but what do I know...repping DOES NOT WORK

>>40306091 (OP)
hm I’m one week off E today hope this doesn’t happen to me…
maybe I’ll try going gay instead, I think I need to remove all femininity from my life

>>40309811
>she went from being an actual youngshit passoid (started hormones before T touched her) to being a hon
Based. Probably one of the few youngshits that got to realize how good they had it.

>>40309811
Im kinda of scared that's me. I haven't felt as dysphoric anymore, and maybe im not tru trans and being a guy would be a lot easier long term

>>40310197
Give it a try, hon it up!

>>40306091 (OP)
YOURE GAY

>>40310278
no

>>40306091 (OP)
what was the reason to detroon?

>>40306091 (OP)
i can't even tell which way you're transitioning, transition now retard, or be bitter forever

>>40309811
>when you forget what unmedicated dysphoria felt like and start deluding yourself into thinking that you could be a normal man, so you stop hrt
glad i only went down this road once early on. i now tell myself to always remember what happened when i tried that if i ever start thinking i could detroon so my family will be happy

>>40309647
>>40308789
>>40306091 (OP)
You look really mentally ill anon. Also why would pussy cure you lol. I have banged many tranny whores and spent years obsessed with them while banging cis women and not once in all my days on this earth has it ever crossed my mind to be a women

>>40307329
i feel bad for that poor girl u used. fuck you

>>40310713
Unfortunately, most people learn pretty much anything only the hard way. Good for you that it only took you once and without particularly bad consequences, so many fail to realise what's going on even after multiple cycles. It's grim.
>>40310165
Sadly, she didn't. Some people just aren't intelligent.
And you know there's another flavour of dumb trannies who stop HRT rather abruptly, post-SRS trannies, they basically say that they completed their transition, they're women now, they don't need HRT anymore. Istg, so many lucky people self-sabotage because they're simply dumb as bricks.

>>40306091 (OP)
Hooooooly shit this is what you’ve been up to? You were always so nihilistic I totally thought you must’ve roped desu, this is much much worse. Grim

>>40306091 (OP)
good. suffer, aapnigger. magats will still take you into a concentration camp when their AI god informs them about you ever being a tranny.

>>40309811
Is this person trying to transition again or are they actually successfully living as a man?