>be me
>19 year old twinkhon
>poor as shit so don't diy
>literally everything goes through insurance for free
>doctor won't give me cypro
>instead gives me a shit ton of spiro
>like way too much spiro
>300 fucking milligrams
>i am constantly pissing
>if i don't go to the bathroom before bed i piss myself
>bf doesn't even mind he thinks its cute
>everyone i complain to says to either diy cypro (fuck you im poor), lower my spiro but i got gigahon t levels i actually need that much, or to just give in and wear a diaper
>i am not wearing a fucking diaper

Picrel, its me rn. It was over before it even started and god didn't even give me the decency of giving me a piss fetish.

have you considered not taking the meds, retard

>>40308500 (OP)
Diaper time. Sounds to me like you’d like to wear one!
(You’ll also get used to the spiro, give it time)

>>40308500 (OP)
Nona that sounds really hot.
I have a question. How does it feel like to piss yourself? Like I don’t understand. I’ve had to pee really really bad before and held my pee for hours and I’ve never come close to pissing myself. I don’t understand how it’s even possible, really. If I held my pee for 4 hours again I wouldn’t even be able to piss myself if I wanted to.
What’s it like? How does it happen? Tell me everything I’m actually so jealous rn

>>40308500 (OP)
when i puked earlier today i pissed some too

>>40308500 (OP)
nona, no offence, but you’re kinda dumb. you are on a medication that makes you piss way more, and it doesn’t stop just because you went to sleep. therefore you should wear a diaper. it’s not because of some fetish, it’s a result of the medication you’re given. this is like THE most reasonable explanation for wearing one during night, would you judge someone with genetic incontinence for wearing a diaper?

>>40308500 (OP)
Just do monotherapy. You can get a vial of estradiol enanthate for $75-$100. One 10ml 40mg/ml vial will last you a little under 2 years, and you won't have to worry about AAs anymore.
If injecting once a week is too much for you, you can also look into estradiol undecylate.
>god didn't even give me the decency of giving me a piss fetish.
Piss is an acquired taste.
>>40308588
Hot.

>>40308509
I need them if i want to have a T level under 300

>>40308540
I will not and i hope, it's been 6 months since then i got upped to 300 and it hasn't gotten better yet

>>40308548
I am not describing how it feels to piss myself this is not a kink for me. I just feel very ashamed and embarrassed afterwards that's all you get.

>>40308500 (OP)
Hi OP pweez answer my questions they’re important >>40308548

>>40308596
That sounds logical but wearing diapers to bed somehow feels more shameful than passing out and pissing the bed once a week

>>40308791
No but listen I mean I phrased it wrong, I want to understand the MECHANICS of it. As in, what actually happens when you piss yourself? Does holding it in require effort from you, and then eventually it’s just too much to handle and it just gives out, or it more like “fuckkkk, this feels so bad idec, Im gonna piss myself rn just because I dont wanna experience this for a second longer” and then you just let go and piss yourself on purpose? So, is it uncontrollable, or voluntary? How long can you hold it for?
OP, I just really wanna be able to piss myself and I never have since I was a kid and you’re living my dream I just wanna know please.

>>40308826
First off i don't actually piss myself if im awake more than like once a year i just have to go a lot. Second like i said im asleep, i mainly just wake up with me, my clothes, my sheets, my blanket and occasionally my bf soaked in cold piss. If i get it on my bf it's usually still warm because he at least has the fortune of being woken up by it.

There is absolutely no way that you can't find anyone describing it online. I was actually going to humor you but typing that out made it sound weird so i changed my mind

>>40308944
youre really really mean.